Diam

Berada dalam keadaan diam itu kadangkala begitu meresahkan jiwa. Hati berkata dan tertanya.

From His Album..

Lagu ini memberi sedikit sebanyak memberi kesan..i personally think this is his best album so far. Worth the wait.


Tak Lelah - Anuar Zain
Composer/Lyricist : Numata

Tak lelah
Kau beri sgalanya
'Tuk yakinkan ku
Kau sayang padaku
Hingga kau
Taklukkan diriku
Membuat ku tersedar
Ku t'lah merasakan sesuatu

Di saat ku mulai sayang
Di saat ku mulai cinta
Kau yang hilangkan rasa untukku

Chorus
Sedih yang mesti ku pendam
Rasa yang menjadi hampa
Ku jalani semua
Walau cinta kini tak berarah

Kau pergi tak beralasan
Tak seperti yang ku pinta
Ku menunggu tiba waktu kau ucapkan
Kau sayang pada ku

Tiada jodoh

Mungkin benar kata mereka berdua aku tiada jodoh dengannya. Buat kali kedua, ia terjadi lagi dan kali ini aku benar-benar kehilangannya. Apa yang hendak kukatakan lagi..aku perlu bersetuju dengan mereka. Handphone hilang. Called my number tapi tak dpt dihubungi. Baru sahaja beli 1G memory card rm60 tadi. Aduss..memang org tu dah ambil. I am hoping bulan puasa ni terbuka hati orang tu memulangkan handphoneku. Doakan sama ya.

Let it be...

Biarpun apa kata mereka.

Biarpun sakit telinga mendengar.

Biarpun pedih hati menerima.

Biarpun terkadang sukar untuk kutelan.

Biarpun mereka masih melihat luaran.

Aku masih bersyukur dengan kurniaanNya.

Syukur dengan kekurangan diri

Itulah menjadi tonggak kekuatanku sedari dulu.

Syukur. Syukur. Syukur. Alhamdulillah.

the thoughts that count

monolog..

"bebaskan aku

dari keadaan ini

sempurnakan hidupku

dari rapuhnya jiwaku

adakah seseorang

yang melepaskanku

dari kesepian ini"

8 Random Facts

I have been tagged by Blalang. Ingatkan adegan tagged meng'tagged' dah tak ada lagi. Here goes..first kena post the rules..

THE RULES:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've tagged, and to read ur blog.

Random fact no. 1



Green tea. I like green tea..suka banget. Tak tahu kenapa begitu suka dengan green tea. I am liking it a lot. Anything with associated dgn green tea definitely akan dapat my attention. Antara things yang pernah i have or once have or even tried are ice-cream, ice-blended, body lotion, body soap, canned or bottled drinks, boh ice green tea, toothpaste, perfume and off course the tea itself. Am i crazy or what!! Talking about ice-cream, hari tu ternampak green tea ice-cream kat Giant. Akan beli for sure.

Random fact no. 2


Books...bila ditanya apa my favourite pastime, i akan jawab reading. Some were smart enough to make a remark "you are such a boring person." How boring can it be...books bring you the a journey yang berbeza. Each book have a story to tell..samada menarik atau tidak. That's explain why the survey kata malaysian read less than 5 books a year. how sad. I love reading since i was small...still loving it. I still have the first book i bought and now with my 9 years old nephew. Ingat i baca buku tu kat my late grandma's house. I will to buy at least 2 books a month..tu yang rak buku dah melimpah ruah and i am one of the Malaysian Bookcrosser...

Random fact no. 3


Talkative. I like to think i am that kind of person...in a good way (hopefully others pun fikir macam tu). Nak kata terover peramah tu taklah kot but i rasa i have no problem bercakap dengan orang i baru kenal. Lebih-lebih lagi if orang tu pun sama talkative.


Random fact no. 4



Music. Suka dengar lagu..sekarang ni mostly lagu indonesia. Malaysian artist boleh dikira dgn jarilah kot yg i suka. It's not that they are not good but indonesian are more better. hahahaha. I can listen to almost everything but taklah rap, heavy metal, remix and perhaps hiphop. Why..so not in the trend ke? Well setiap orang ada their own liking kan. Suka juga dengar Richard Clayderman..very calming and also not forgeting gamelan..suka,suka and suka (jgn tak caya, i ada cd gamelan). Talking about music..my fav. song of alltime is "More Than Words" by Extreme. Mungkin kerana the lyrics as well as the music...for me jika selalu mengungkap kata cinta akan membuatkan ia kurang bermakna if compared when it is said when you least expected it..shweet. Itu apa yg i rasa, org lain mungkin sebaliknya.

Random fact no. 5
Silence Treatment. I tak suka nak argue dengan orang...sebab i tak reti how to balas balik apa yang they said. Later baru kata to myself, i should said this or that. Most of the time i akan diam..especially bila i marah. Lagipun mungkin malas nak prolong all these buat sakit kepala aje. I think this make people take advantage of me sebab depa tu ingat i macam tak kisah dgn apa yg they buat or said. i will try to avoid any argument if possible but i can be very sarcastic at times..but very rare occasion. I was once a hot tempered person...believe me. Masa sekolah2 dulu..my friends will not talk to me if i marah. Nanti tak pasal-pasal, dia orang yang kena marah. That was then..now i am not that person..tend to take things much easy.

Random fact no. 6

Procrastinate. Very bad habit. I tend to do this sometimes. Quite often than not. Especially during study..somehow my brain ni if study awal-awal masuk tak masuk dalam otak apa yang dibaca. Bila last minute tu okay ajer penerimaan otak. Lepas tu mulalah regret..i can do even better if only i revise much earlier. Itu perkara biasalah kan.


Random fact no. 7

Poetry. One of the earliest poem yg ingat i belajar is "The Story of Augustus who not have any Soup". seingat i either masa std 5. Kena baca kat depan class.. "Augustus was a chubby lad; Fat ruddy cheeks Augustus had; bla bla bla.. "O take the nasty soup away! I won't have any soup to-day: I will not, will not eat my soup! I will not eat it, no!" dgn gaya-gaya sekali. Tersenyum sorang bila ingatkan. Then, years later Kak Sunida (wonder where is she at the moment..) wrote a poem in my book that i cherish until now. It somehow develop my love towards poetry once again. Suka poetry but tak pandai sangat nak tulis.. My fav. poetry.. 'IF' by Rudyard Kipling.

Random fact no. 8

Horror Movies. Tak suka tengok horror movie sebab it will haunt me for days. Also movies yang ada violences and suspence elements...boleh pecah dada. because of this, i always being teased by my cousins. Setiap kali i went to their place masa tu lah nak tengok horror movie. adusss. apa lagi sorok muka belakang bantal. I suka tengok investigation series macam CSI, Criminal Minds, Numb3rs, Bones etc etc.. Teringat pulak cerita TJ Hooker..masa tu gila tengok Adrian Zmed. Can still remember his name.

Ini sahaja yang dapat dicoretkan disini...now i have to list 8 names pulak. And the awards go to..

1. Cekya
2. Ligo
3. Lun
4. Awan
5. I_mshe
6. Azell
7. Cekmi
8. Jimi

Envy..

I am happy for them..i really am but i can stop myself from having the envy feeling. Think about myself and said "one day perhaps...one day perhaps." Period.

All the best

Good Luck Awan

Jungle Nite

First and foremost, Happy Birthday Cekmi. Do take care and have fun. Sms me when you are back.

Annual dinner was fun. We had it on the eve of National Day. Things were a bit chaotic in the beginning as the hotel was quite late in setting up the room. People were arriving and we still not ready. Our staffs had to lend them a hand with the set up. I was also quite disappointed because they cannot provide us with the flowers they had promised. They have lots function that day and the flowers were out of stock. Had to rush back to the hotel room to get ready or i'll be late. Despite the hiccups, the whole event was great. Lots of animals that nite and one cute pink rabbit. winks. winks.

I think everyone enjoyed themselves. I did. Even better with the presence of Cekya and Awan as our unofficial photographer. It was good to have them around. Life cannot be more better when you have your good friends to enjoy the joyful moments with you.

Thanks Awan and Cekya. Photos can be seen here.

saat itu

Merindu pada sebuah ceritera semalam yang seharusnya ditinggakan jauh. Sesekali kenangan itu menerjah dan tak mampu kutangkis. Sampai bilakah?

So so clumsy..

I am angry at myself. At my own clumsiness. I am disappointed with myself and for that i am speechless. May i will find my cellphone at the hotel or wherever it is. As well as the peace in my heart.

My Lil Angel

that's my lil angel, isya. she's a big girl now.
how i miss her..

She also likes pink. notice the pink dress and bangle..any similarities Cekya?

I Hid My Love

by : John Clare (1793 - 1864), Henry Gibson

I hid my love when young till I
Couldn't bear the buzzing of a fly,
I hid my love to my despite
Till i could not bear to look at the light:
I dare not gaze upon her face
But left her memory in each place;
Where'er I saw wild a flower lie
I kissed and bade my love good-bye.

I met her in the greenest dells,
Where dewdrops pearl the wood bluebells;
The lost breeze kissed her bright blue eye,
The bee kissed and went by,
A sunbeam found a passage there,
A gold chain round her neck so fair;
As secret as the wild bee's song
She lay there all the summer long.

I hid my love in field and town
till e'en the breeze would knocked me down;
the bees seemed singing the ballads o'er,
The fly's bass turned a lion's roar;
And even silence found a tongue,
To haunt me all the summer long;
The riddle nature could not prove
Was nothing else but secret love.

A year younger..

Happy Birthday Lun. Wish you all the happiness in the world.

I am in denial. Sigh!!

p/s :Happy Birthday MamaEmmy. Wish all dreams will come true.

W.O.W

A friend's words of wisdom :

"He will give what you want if you give Him what He wants"

So true..and yet sometimes we lose sight.


p/s : i like my new layout. Glad you guys like it too

The One With A New Layout

Had an enjoyable weekend with Awan and his friends..as well as Cekmi coincidently. A late nite treat at Restoran Jejantas with juicy stories..ermm. The next day we hit the road back to KL. Later that nite..at home, i feel all alone. Tak suka that feeling.

My blog has a new layout now..belum 100% siap. Very clean look.

Happy Hour

Life has been leisurely calm.. Not more classes to attend or trying to keep up with deadlines, and above all that, no more exams. So what did i do on saturdays and sundays? I did not do anything bizarre..sometimes just laze around and watched tellie till late time. Taking the time off even from blogging, though i have so much to tell. Such a wonderful life. I-A-M-L-O-V-I-N-G-I-T. But i am not very sure how long i can stay this way...not studying, i mean. Been doing that ever since i got my first degree. Few of my friends did ask if i have the intention to pursue. Yes, the intention to do Doctorate is there, just don't know when. At the moment, just let me feel the enjoyment of being free after the 2 years of hardwork.

Also, there are those who are not keen of the idea..wanting me to settle down. Not-that-easy. At my age, where can i find a good single guy nowadays..most of them are already taken, not ready for any commitment or career-oriented. What is left? The opportunist..lots of those these days. It scares me. Sometimes i feel that i in my comfort zone with being single. I have the freedom to do as i pleased, out with friends whenever i want. One the other hand, i want the companionship..if possible without having to sacrifice my freedom, perhaps not all but most of it. The only cloud in the horizon is the fail marriage or he turned out to be a complete stranger after saying the vows.

Transformers..robots in the sky ( An's version). Managed to see the movie after twice of unlucky circumstances. Some even said maybe 'i takde jodoh with transformers'. I am determined to see the movie..no matter what. You must be wondering what were the unlucky instances.

• My friend managed to get us the ticket for saturday show on wednesday. Woke up saturday morning with the eagerness to watch Transformers (been waiting since last year). Couldn't get my car to start..tried few times, still failed to get the engine running. It was 9.00pm and the workshops were yet to open. Luckily, they had their handwritten phone number at the banner. Quickly called the mechanic. After done some checking, he said the alternator need to be changed. Since he did not store any at the workshop, he need to get it elsewhere. Still early, i might be able to make it to KLCC at 11am. Waiting..waiting and felt like forever. My heart pounded fast when my watched showed 10.45pm. My hope crushes. Called my friend few times but can't get through. Apparently, she did not bring her cellphone. Told the mechanic i am going home (luckily it's only a 5 mins walk) and asked him to call me when it's ready. By the time the car is ready it has past 1pm. Sigh!!!
• On Monday, planned with my colleagues to watch the movie on Wednesday. The four of us..Redz, Jidi and Aja. Booked the ticket online and i got Redz to pick up the tickets. On that Wednesday, we rushed to Midvalley and got there on time. Went into the movie theatre and happily seated at our seats with the popcorns and all. Again, i waited. Popcorns almost finish...wondered why it took so long for the show to start. Suddenly we heard someone made an announcement that there was a technical problem and the movie cannot be shown. People started to make noises. i can understand why. To queue for the tickets is not something we want to do again. We have no other choice but to get our refund. Decided to watch the show on friday but we cannot do the booking since the monitor only showed up to Thursday showtimes. To cut it short, Friday and Saturday fully booked, we manage to catch Monday's show. At last, after such a long wait, i can proudly say that I HAVE WATCHED TRANSFORMERS. It was beyond words..superbly good. You know what i mean, right?

Masyi requested that i post pictures of the house i am staying currently. Will do that after i take a few snapshots. Not something fancy or extraordinary but i like it very much. Hoping that she will sell the house to me. Do pray for me..please.

I know i don't have the look but i don't need to be constantly reminded of that eventhough jokingly. I can accept it the first time but not that often. Thinking back, i feel that he are sometimes like my sister, like to say as they pleased without thinking that others might feel offended with their words. Lidah itu lebih tajam dari mata pedang. Whatever lah...the inner beauty is much more important that what lies in the outside. I am still grateful being the person i am..Alhamdulillah.

Later Alligator

Got lots to story tapi my internet is still not up and running sebab telephone line kat rumah ada problem. Hopefully it will be okay in this 2-3 weeks. am using my cuzzie pc to check few things.

take care guys