Another Year...

Looking at old photos, reminiscing the past, remembering how i walked through my life, i must say i am feeling blessed and grateful for all the things i have.

Today, i am a year older and i hope to continue the journey gracefully. Insya'allah.

Coming Home

i am back to where i belong
but yet,

i still feel alone.

Deeply hurt

Right now I am still hurts by some of the things said by them. I wish that one day they will understand how hard it is for me.

I feel so alone, lost and the hurt is deep.

Sorry for everything.

Letting Go

These few weeks has been quite tough for me. I wanted so very much for thing to be like it used to be but everything seems to fall apart and i can't do much about. It is so frustrating and leads me to feel so helpless. One person i am counting also have give up hope, what is there for me to look forward to. There and then i decided to let go eventhough i know letting go is the hardest thing to. I have been clinging to the idea that one day he and me might be together. I have been comparing everyone i am with to him...not a good thing to do but just can't help it. Now after so so many years, nothing seems to change. Worst, we are so drifted away from each other. It has come to a point that i feel i should not dream for the impossible. Maybe it is not meant to be after all. I never thought that a day would come for me to say goodbye to all of it. Kind of sad but there is not point of holding on to something is not there. Going to be hard to kill the feelings and emotions that have built inside me for years.

There still a lot that i want to let out of my system and say to him but i better just stop here. I pray to Allah to give the strength to get through this.

This too shall pass.