Tuesday, December 25, 2018


I have always been intrigued by people who are a lot smarter than me and with impeccable knowledge.  Like an infatuation. Like now.

Monday, December 24, 2018

Distraction Needed.

trying very hard to distract myself from of this thing i am thinking. the harder i try, the harder it gets. Worst part is i am not ready to talk to anyone about it, it is all bottle up inside.

Ya Allah, please have mercy on me.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

sadness hit

it has been 8 months with the new organization, so far i am loving what i am doing. due to the transformation of the organization to a statutory body, lots need to be done. i love the challenge, nevertheless. Learning new things as i go. here i am polishing my accounting knowledge that never been used, brushing up my customer skills dealing with the borrowers. Tons of file to attend to. really been busy and being quiet from the blogging scene and social as well. Only met up with close friends.

it's almost 8.30pm and i am still in the office and this is somewhat a routine. can't be expecting only the staffs to stay back everyday until 9pm. need to lead by example too.

This is better than going home and being alone sometime. 

슬픈 느낌

Monday, March 14, 2016

UEMB, I Bid You Farewell.

After 4 years of service, i decided to say goodbye to UEMB. A decision that was made with a heavy heart. I joined the organization with very little knowledge about construction but i left with valuable knowledge and experience. I am fortunate to have a boss who believe and entrusted me with responsibilities that were beyond my expertise. I had the chance to head the Asset and Logistic for few months before the replacement took over and took a role of Head of Corporate Comm. Taking these additional responsibilities whilst still taking charge of the Insurance Dept was a indeed challenge but i am glad i did it as the experience was invaluable.

The only thing that disappoint me are i did not get my bonus and the 50th UEM anniversary gift. Just watched my colleagues' happy faces.

New place will bring new challenge. The travelling to workplace is itself a challenge, Petaling Jaya to Putrajaya.

Good Luck to me.

Tuesday, September 29, 2015

New Role, New Challenge, New Knowledge

Yes, it has been a while since this blog was updated. Working life has been quite busy lately as i have to take care of 2 departments. In August i assumed an additional role of Head of Corporate Communication Department while still maintaining as Head of Insurance Department. I have been wanting to do something different and this is a good opportunity to learn and explore new things. Alhamdulillah. It is quite hectic because i need to grasp the knowledge quick as i am lacking of experience in corporate communication field. 

With the slumping down of the Ringgit, my travelling plan also changed. Am hoping to see the rise of Ringgit, but i guess it's going to take sometime to upturn. Sigh..

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Raya Mood..where are thou?

Raya is just 2 days away but somehow i did not feel the excitement. I did not go for raya shopping nor did i bake cookies for myself. I did not even apply for eid leave. The festivy mood haven't kick in yet...until now. My brother and my sister are celebrating eid with their in-laws. That leaves me and my younger brother celebrating eid together. I had plan to celebrate eid in PJ but my youngest brother was not agreeable to it. He wanted to celebrate raya at Malacca still. Not having parents to celebrate raya with really make a big difference in my live. Since my parents passed away, my siblings and i have been spending our raya with my aunties at my late grandfather's house which now is being inherited by Mak Busu. Yes, i am lucky that i have a close knit with my aunties but still it is not the same without my parents around. I envy my cousins at this time of the year.

I hope the i will feel the excitement of raya soon.

Selamat Hari Raya to all. Maaf Zahir Batin. Drive safe ya

Friday, June 26, 2015

How long will it last?

As I grow older, I see and observe a lot and the more cautious I become especially when it comes to finding a partner and marriage. Call me picky, choosy and whatever terms you have. That were some of the words people said for single lady at my age, me not excluded. I strongly believe as men, women also have the rights to choose. It really annoys me when I heard men said single women are choosy and for the actual fact they are choosy too in finding their other half.  Finding a husband is not like buying clothes in the mall. Then again, even in buying clothes, most women are very particular, I am for one. Even more so, in the finding a life partner.  Yeah, we are talking about till death do us part, not till divorce do us part. Off course, we want the best for us.

Recently, I met up with a close friend and she told me that she is going through a divorce process.  I was shocked because I did not smell any problem, all seems going very well. She kept her years of suffering to herself and pretended to be happy. I guess now she had enough of bottling up and time to move on. I did not ask of the details but knowing her for years, I know she must have strong reasons to do so. As a friend, In Shaa Allah, I will be there for her to go through this.
I also saw someone stay in marriage for wrong reasons. I would rather she get away from her mentally abused marriage but I am an outsider.

In my opinion, couple do not have to stay in marriage if they can’t see eyes to eyes in everything and always bickering with each other. Do not use children as the reason to stay in marriage because at the end of the day, the children also suffer. They will grow up and understand. But, if it can be worked out and the couple are willing to do sacrifices to make the marriage works, by all means do it.

These kind of stories has make me feel a bit scared of marriage. So many "what if" questions in my mind. What if i met with a wrong kind of guy? What if it does not last long? I will never know but I believe Allah is the best Planner...just put my trust on Him.

Once you do embark upon the separation or divorce process, it is very important to remember three key things: Be kind, be reasonable, be brief. Remember that this person will no longer be your spouse, but he or she will continue to be your co-parent, family member, and perhaps business partner in certain assets or entities.