I am officially a Pandan Jaya resident now that I have moved there. I am still tired of the moving, unpacking and rearranging. Lots more to go. Probably will finish in few days.

On Saturday, Cekya and I went to Zoo Negara as we had a photoshoot job there. On our way back, suddenly there was something wrong with the air-cond and I saw the heat meter was pointing at the red box. I quickly stopped at the opposite of 7-eleven Pandan Jaya. I was about to open the bonnet when one Indian guy appeared out of nowhere and asked "kenapa? Kereta rosak ke? At the back of my mind I was thinking how did he know…I might be just checking the engine. I nodded and planned to go to 7-E to buy a bottle of mineral water. He told me he got water and pour into the radiator. The water came out of the bottom of the radiator..the flow like there were two holes. It puzzled me because my car was okay in the morning. If there was some problem with the radiator, there should be some signs. He said he can arrange for repair. I remembered Nora told me, her neighbor have a workshop and just told him need to go to my aunt place…and it's a walking distance. He gave me his number if I decided to repair and mentioned that most of the workshops were already closed. Mindboggling and puzzled, I came to an assumption..my instinct told me that these guys must have tampered with the radiator and had been trailing me. Luckily I used the Pandan Jaya route, if I were to used the Kepong route, they might succeeded in getting the money.

It still pissed me off because I have to fork out extra money to repair the radiator when I also have to pay the house rental and deposits for the house I moved in not to mention other expenses. My budget is very tight this month.

Reading love story books are always a challenge for me. Why? I always ended up in tears..well off course, not every book. Want to know why? I will think of him each time and it hurts. It's hard to shut off the memories. Reading the twilight series were also not an exception. Edward made me think of him so much and I was dragged into the story. I felt the hurt, my throat ached and tried very hard not to let my tears fell when Edward left Bella. Am I obsessed with the story? I guess, I am and Cekya will second that. I see myself in Bella. Sigh.

So, is it true when people say time will heal a broken heart? I didn't see it happening. It has been few years now. Someday I wished that someone will sweep my feet away and carry off the hurt. I still hear his voice and see his face. Truth is, I haven't gotten over him. Do I miss him? Yes, a lot.

"The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface."
Bella Swan, New Moon. Chapter 3, p.84

It has been a while since update. Lots to tell but rasa mcm tak ada mood nak update. Really not in the mood. Occasionally, I think of my dad and how I miss his presence. Sebak. Allah Maha Mengetahui.

Pagi tagi dapat news tentang Ibuk. She passed away last night in her battle against cancer. Aku terdiam kerana aku tahu apa yang Lun rasa saat itu. Kalau aku di SG, pasti sudah aku mendptkan dia. Hanya mampu menelefon dan give her support. Aku harap dia tabah. Pada aku, dia seorang anak yang begitu mengambil berat dan telah melakukan yang terbaik.

"My dearest Lun…semoga tabah menghadapi dugaan ini. You have tried your very best and I am sure Ibuk pun tahu. I am always here for you, always. Things are definitely going to change but take it one step at a time. Hugs and kisses."

On the other continent, kisahnya lain pula tetapi serupa. Pengorbanan. Seorang bapa/ibu terhadap anakanda tersayang, Amir Yusuf. Aku tidak pernah lupa untuk mengetahui the latest news about Amir. Sometimes it made me cry. Bagaimana insan sekecil itu telah menghadapi berbagai dugaan. Yang pasti Amir Yusuf seorang anak yang kuat. Moga Amir Yusuf akan cepat sembuh dan pulang ke rumah.

"Fajar dan isteri..kuatkan semangat. Ramai yang mendoakan Amir, insya'allah."

Aku mengharap 2009 will brings yang terbaik buat semua orang. Amin.