Friday, February 25, 2005

A Girl & 2 Guys

I can't think straight.
I am confused.
I am battling with my own emotions.
I am playing with fire.
and the situation goes haywire

What the heck is happening here? Is it possible for a girl to like/love two guys at one time? Some of you must think i might out of my mind, others might say that i am selfish.

I don't want to hurt either one of them..but i have the right to choose, rite?

The story goes like this..( a brief one )

I got to know both of them about a year thru the common platform used by most people nowadays..thru the internet. Both of them are younger than me but as people says age is merely numbers.

A approached me first. I kinda like him but i did not gave any answer to the question maybe because i did not sense the maturity in him. Later, he told me that he and her ex got back together and i am fine with that. Somehow things does not go well between them. We are still in contact and went out. I can feel that he regards me as someone special in his life with his expressions and words.

B is the guy i want to be with, so when approached me, i said yes ( until now i hope it's the rite thing ). The one problem with him is that he far away..a Singaporean. He do call every now and then. It's just that sometimes i felt that he's been so secrective. When you really care and love someone, you will do everything in your power to be with he/she. Well, that's not the case with him. He's came to KL on a few occassions but did not take the time to come and see me. How does that make me feel? I do understand if he is busy or whatever but at least please show some effort. Right now, i am just going to carry on and wait what is going to happen next.

If I want to go for someone that is responsible and financial stability, B is that person. I don't mind him being far away. I care so much for him and do love him...just that sometimes i felt that he took me for granted. Maybe because i am not being fussy and complaint that much.

A is not financially stabil and his out of job at the moment. ( as for now i can tolerate with that ) but he will be working soon. He is a nice guy and for the fact that he's here make me sometimes thinks that i know him a bit better than B.

I do i feel that i am being unfair, but when come to think about it, why should i care? All these while, i have been taking care of other people feelings and ignoring mine. Perhaps, this time around i should be thinking of myself.

Am i being self-centered?

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

To My Friends...

Hey, Be sure to read this, it may help many of you… you will even enjoy and learn from it.

To My Friends Who Are ........... SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you just let it fly, I
t will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it
to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best

To My Friends Who Are ........... NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming
somebody else's "perfect person"
It's about finding someone who helps
you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are ........... ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is
not the years spent together
But how good you are for each other

To My Friends Who Are ........... MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry."
Not "where are you", but "I'm right here for you"
Not "how could you", but "I understand"
Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are"

To My Friends Who Are ........... HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want
and cut as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
But to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are ........... NAIVE
How to be in love:
Be consistent but not too persistent,
Share and never be unfair,
Understand and try not to demand,
And get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are ........... POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love
Happy with someone else
But it's more painful to know that the one you love
Is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are ........... AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most:
When the person you love has no idea
howyou feel about him/her

To My Friends Who Are ........... STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you
meet someone and fall in love,
only to find out in the end that
it was never meant to be, a
nd that you have wasted years
on someone who wasn't worth it.
If that person doesn't worth it now,
it's not going to be worth it a year
or 10 years from now.

My wish for you is a man/women whose love is:
honest, strong, mature, never-changing, protective,
encouraging, rewarding and unselfish

Friday, February 18, 2005

Persoalan Kahwin

Semenjak aku nak pindah rumah ni, persoalan itu timbul lagi. Persoalan bila nak kahwin. Kadang-kadang penat juga nak menjawab.

Kes 1

Mak Long :
Sekarang dah ada kereta dan rumah, carilah seorang yang baik-baik buat suami. Takkan nak hidup sorang-sorang. Perempuan sekarang ni bila dah ada kerja dan harta, dah malas nak cari suami.
Aku ( dalam hati ):
Ish, Mak Long ku situ pulak. Bukanlah tak nak, Insya'allah jika ada jodoh ( hopefully dengan sidia ) kahwinlah aku.
Kes 2

Mak Lang :
Ni dah ada rumah, carilah suami pulak. Tak kaya pun tak apa, asalkan baik. Jom Alang bawa mandi bunga.
Aku ( dalam hati ):
Alamak...mandi bungalah pulak.
Ada satu quote yang berbunyi " Nice guys are hard to find. There are either married or gay or have girlfriend." Mungkin ada kebenarannya. Aku dah malas nak jawab persoalan pasal kahwin ni. Insya'allah, ada jodohku nanti.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005


Sejak beberapa minggu ni, mata kanan ku asyik berkedip sahaja. Kata orang kalau mata kanan berkedip maknanya nak jumpa orang jauh or nak jumpa orang yang dah lama tak jumpa. Tapi kalau sebelah kiri tandanya nak menangis.

Siapa agaknya orang yang akan aku jumpa?

Tuesday, February 08, 2005


Aku kalau boleh nak move out from rumah sewa tu by this chinese new year. Dah tak larat nak bayar untuk dua rumah sekali. Tengah pening kepala fikir sebab banyak nak pakai duit pindah rumah ni. Gaji lambat lagi..uwaaa..uwaaa. Bulan ni aku betul-betul kekurangan duit..banyak unexpected expenses kena bayar. Kalau boleh tak nak pinjam from FAMA. Takkan nak pinjam balik duit yang kita bagi..malunya. So, sekarang aku tengah cari orang-orang yang pernah pinjam duit dari aku and cuba minta dari dia orang. Yang pastinya 1K memang aku tak boleh dapat sebab orang tu dah gone with the wind. Hopefully dia orang ada duit nak bayar.

Saturday, February 05, 2005

What Actually Love Is

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry?
When we imagine? When we kiss?
This is because the most beautiful things in the world are unseen.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall in
mutual weirdness and call it love.

There are things that we never want to let go of,
people we never want to leave behind,
but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world,
it's the beginning of a new life.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,
those who have searched and those who have tried.
For only they can appreciate the importance of the people
who have touched their lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for him,
it's when he ignores you and still you long for him.
It's when he begins to love another and yet you still smile
and say I'm happy for you.

If love fails, set yourself free,
let your heart spread its wings and fly again.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies,
you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win
but those who stand back up when they fall.

Somehow along the course of life,
you learn about yourself and realize
there should never be regrets,
only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

A true friend understands when you say, I forgot,
waits forever when you say, just a minute,
stays when you say leave me alone,
opens the door even before you knock and says can I come in?

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,
not how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel,
and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly.
Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever.

In love, very rarely do we win
but when love is true, even if you lose,
you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone
more than you love yourself.

There comes a time when we have to stop loving someone
not because that person has stopped loving us
but because we have found out
that they'd be happier if we let go.

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
Best to wait for the one you love than one who is around.
Best to wait for the right one
because life is too short to waste on just someone.

Sometimes the one you love turns out to be the one who hurts you the most,
and sometimes the friend who takes you into his arms
and cries when you cry
turns out to be the love you never knew you wanted.

If you really love someone never let go,
don't believe that letting go means that you love best,
instead fight for your love,
that's what true love is.

Laugh to your heart's content; you cannot go through life without it.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

I am back!!!

Aku dah balik dari KK last Saturday. Nanti i will update pasal KK okay. Kena settle work dulu.

Semalam beli cd Ning yang terbaru...aku memang suka dengar suara dia. Superb and powerful. Lagu-lagu dalam cd ni pun memang best.

Ini Yang Dikata Cinta

Di kala aku sendirian
Sepi hidupku tanpa cinta
Betapa indahnya bila ada cinta di hati
Gelisah di jiwa tak terasa
Semua manusia, harus ada cinta
Kerna, sepi dunia tanpa cinta
Ini yang dikata cinta
Setelah sekian lama ku sendiri
Tak pernah ku duga
Kita bertemu
Kerna lahirnya cinta dalam hati
Ini yang dikata cinta
Mengubati kehidupan yang resah
Indah percintaan
Bila bersama
Apabila kita kenali cinta
Harus kita bersatu kerna cinta