Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Will time heal the pain?

Reading love story books are always a challenge for me. Why? I always ended up in tears..well off course, not every book. Want to know why? I will think of him each time and it hurts. It's hard to shut off the memories. Reading the twilight series were also not an exception. Edward made me think of him so much and I was dragged into the story. I felt the hurt, my throat ached and tried very hard not to let my tears fell when Edward left Bella. Am I obsessed with the story? I guess, I am and Cekya will second that. I see myself in Bella. Sigh.

So, is it true when people say time will heal a broken heart? I didn't see it happening. It has been few years now. Someday I wished that someone will sweep my feet away and carry off the hurt. I still hear his voice and see his face. Truth is, I haven't gotten over him. Do I miss him? Yes, a lot.

"The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface."
Bella Swan, New Moon. Chapter 3, p.84

Friday, December 26, 2008

Yang terbaik

It has been a while since update. Lots to tell but rasa mcm tak ada mood nak update. Really not in the mood. Occasionally, I think of my dad and how I miss his presence. Sebak. Allah Maha Mengetahui.

Pagi tagi dapat news tentang Ibuk. She passed away last night in her battle against cancer. Aku terdiam kerana aku tahu apa yang Lun rasa saat itu. Kalau aku di SG, pasti sudah aku mendptkan dia. Hanya mampu menelefon dan give her support. Aku harap dia tabah. Pada aku, dia seorang anak yang begitu mengambil berat dan telah melakukan yang terbaik.

"My dearest Lun…semoga tabah menghadapi dugaan ini. You have tried your very best and I am sure Ibuk pun tahu. I am always here for you, always. Things are definitely going to change but take it one step at a time. Hugs and kisses."

On the other continent, kisahnya lain pula tetapi serupa. Pengorbanan. Seorang bapa/ibu terhadap anakanda tersayang, Amir Yusuf. Aku tidak pernah lupa untuk mengetahui the latest news about Amir. Sometimes it made me cry. Bagaimana insan sekecil itu telah menghadapi berbagai dugaan. Yang pasti Amir Yusuf seorang anak yang kuat. Moga Amir Yusuf akan cepat sembuh dan pulang ke rumah.

"Fajar dan isteri..kuatkan semangat. Ramai yang mendoakan Amir, insya'allah."

Aku mengharap 2009 will brings yang terbaik buat semua orang. Amin.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Another year has come and gone;The sands of time keep trickling away


Happy Birthday Cekya..



Birthday Wishes For My Friend

On your birthday,
I wish for you the fulfillment
of all your fondest dreams.
I hope that for every candle
on your cake
you get a wonderful surprise.
I wish for you that
whatever you want most in life,
it comes to you,
just the way you imagined it,
or better.
I hope you get as much pleasure
from our friendship as I do.
I wish we were sisters,
so I could have known you
from the beginning.
I look forward to
enjoying our friendship
for many more of your birthdays.
I'm so glad you were born,
because you brighten my life
and fill it with joy.

Happy Birthday!

By Joanna Fuchs