Tuesday, April 24, 2012

let them..

Remarks being passed. I am the wrongdoer in their eyes..people has the rights to their own thoughts. It's better not to say anything, when saying will worsen the situation.

In some part of our life, we will go through a life changing and eye-opening experience. Some that we learnt from and some we didn't. i tend to take something away from this..which i did not before.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Quiet Emotion

I know lots of questions arise at the back of their heads but some things are just better be left unsaid to avoid all possible judgements. It will end up hurting others and myself. Past experience taught me so.

The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can't turn back.

I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.

Sometimes on those busy days
when you've a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.

In that quiet moment
when you're surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between us
I am still someone who cares.

                                                   Quiet Emotions

Wednesday, April 11, 2012


it has been a long long time since i feel this way...having a crush over someone. somewhat ridiculous at this age. He do not fit in my selection criteria, even more so he is younger than me but definitely something about him catches my attention.

i should vanquish all these and watch out for the torns...this is only wishful thinking

there..i say it!

Tuesday, April 03, 2012

Doing it all again....

i got know that the landlord is selling the house on the 2nd week i moved in when the malay couple came to visit. I was told back then the new owner intended to treat it as an investment. It gave me a big relief as my contract expires in November. Today after 4 months, i was told the opposite and what me even furious knowing that they want to move out immediately. The landlord agreed to pay them 2 months rental out of her pocket, giving me the 2 months notice to look up for a new place.

it kinda hit me hard thinking about all the things that i need to do..the packing and unpacking, relocating Astro, the phone and internet line to the new place, not to mention finding a place and transportation...doing it all by myself. I still feel the tiredness from the last moving. That was when i cried and thought how i wish i have someone in my life i can depend on.

maybe i am tired of being alone after all....

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

Atok...you are in my heart always

i was eagerly waiting for the weekend as my sister and her family planned to stay over at my place but after midnight i received a call that Atok was in a critical condition. Quickly packed my things and rushed back to Malacca. On the way, i decided to call Achik to check on Atuk's condition but to know that he has left us all. It is not something unexpected considering his old age and health condition but maybe i don't expect it would be so soon.
When i was small i love to watch Atok prepared his roti canai dough and he will sometimes give us a lil bit of the dough for us to play with. I still remember his 'kuah dalca'..it is so yummy and it has been my benchmark for 'kuah dalca' for all roti canai. Still clear in my mind helping Atok at his small restaurant by the beach.
He cooked for weddings including for few of cousins' big day. I love helping him with the preparation and cooking...a good way to develop my passion for cooking. More often than not, helping him has become a great pleasure until one of his helper said that i should get Atok to inherit me his recipes. I guess he has passed down all his recipes to my aunts and eventually down to us, his grandchildren.
His 'basikal tua' brings lots of memories to me...to my siblings and my cousins. It was his main transportation to go about and around. He cycled his 'basikal tua' to his small restaurant, mosque and sometimes visiting his childrens whether at home or stalls. We, the grandchildren love to play around with the bicycle. With that his 'basikal tua' i learned to cycle and my newly bought pyjama was torn because of that.

These few days i heard good things about Atok...poeple acknowledged his contributions to the mosque. One said Atok brought some changes while he was the imam. i also heard my uncle telling my aunt, an ustaz told his jamaah at the surau ( after knowing that Atok has passed away) how Atok still remember surah2 Sajadah at his age of 96. Despite his weak conditions, Atok still performed his prayers. Even an hour or so before he passed on, he told Achik he wanted to perform his prayer..but due the chaotic moment it he did not got the chance to perform his prayer.
My cousins and me sometimes teased him from far by saying "kesian org cina tua tu naik basikal"..this was because Atok's mom (our great grandmother) was from Hong Kong. Even Atok was born there...in Wan Chai. He told me, our great grandfather was HQ was in Wan Chai and he was based there. i guess he met my great grandmother over there.
Atok was shipcaptain before he got himself involved in business but he left his job during the war. Alhamdulillah he quit, the ship then was bombed by the Japanese.
This is not to brag about Atok, just express my admiration towards him and to share my story about him. He is my idol and he will be missed so dearly..

Friday, March 02, 2012


my life is somewhat meaningful nowadays...there are things to look forward to rather than feeling blue. I have learn to push the negativity away and think of good things. i have great friends to thank to. Perhaps the new workplace have actually lessen my worries and burden, one thing that i am glad for. Maybe, just maybe it grows with the age. 2012 has been great so far.
Not forgetting my nephews and niece that have colour my life with their existence. I just wish that my parents have the chance to meet Ashraff and Aina..which is unlikely at the moment.
I know few of my friends are struggling in their life journey...my prayers are always with them. Insya'allah things are going to be better, don't give up. i heard this in Radio Ikim..

"yang baik tak semestinya baik dan yg tidak baik tidak semestinya tidak baik. Allah Maha Mengetahui"

Yeay!! Let's Blog and Rock

I am glad that Cekya decided to start blogging again…am hoping that others will also follow suit.
Let’s continue with the old routine..visiting each other blog. Masyi and Lun..waiting for you guys to update. I know Cekmi, Jimi and Awan still update their blogs. Awan, please open the blog to all..miss reading it.

Thursday, March 01, 2012

Welcoming myself to the blogging area...again

it has been really really long since i last stepped here. today, whilst driving to work, i told myself perhaps i should blog again. I know most of us have stop blogging with the existence of facebook, twitter and other social medias as status can be updated whenever and wherever.

let's blog again...i met a lots of good people through blogging and they are part of my life now.