Friday, September 24, 2004

Tentang Seseorang

Tentang Seseorang

Teruntukmu dihatiku
ku inginku bersuara
merangkai semua tanya imaji yg terlintas
berjalan pada satu
tanya slalu mengangguku
seseorang itukah dirimu kasih
kepada yang tercinta inginnya ku mengeluh
semua resah didiri mencari jawab pasti
akankah seseorang
yang ku impikan kan hadir
raut halus menyelimuti jantungku
cinta hanyalah cinta
hidup dan mati untukmu
mungkinkah semua tanya
kau yang jawab
dan tentang seseorang
itu pula dirimu
ku bersumpah kan mencintai...


Dah lama aku tak dengar lagu ni..rupanya aku ada burn lagu ni kat cd. Tiba-tiba teringat pada someone yang pernah memberikan lagu ini kepada aku.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Tiada Tajuk

Actually nak cerita pasal malacca trip tapi takde masa nak tulis so aku post this email that Awin forward to me. I will story morry morning glory about Malacca later.


Assalamualaikum wr wb.kadang-kadang ...bilamana kita dilanda pelbagai
ujian dan dugaan hati ini selalu sahaja merintih...dan pelbagai
persoalan timbul dibenak hati sanubari kita.......

KENAPA AKU DIUJI ?

" Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan (saja)mengatakan:
"Kami telah beriman," sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi? Dan
sesungguhnya Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka
sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya
Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta. "
Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KENAPA AKU TIDAK DAPAT APA YANG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN ?
" ..... Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik
bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat
buruk bagimu;Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. "
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216


KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI ?
" Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan
kesanggupannya."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

RASA KECEWA ??
" Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah (pula) kamu bersedih
hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi derajatnya, jika
kamu orang-orang yang beriman. "
-Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA ?
" Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah
kesabaranmu dan tetaplah bersiap siaga (di perbatasan negerimu) dan
bertakwalah kepada Allah supaya kamu beruntung. "
-Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan sabar dan shalat.
Dan sesungguhnya yang demikian itu sungguh berat, kecuali bagi orang-
orang yang khusyu', "
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARIPADA SEMUA INI ??
" Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang mu'min, diri dan
harta mereka dengan memberikan surga untuk mereka ..... "
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP ?
" ..... Cukuplah Allah bagiku; tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia. Hanya
kepada-Nya aku bertawakkal. Dia adalah Tuhan yang memiliki 'Arsy yang
agung. "
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

AKU DAH TAK DAPAT BERTAHAN LAGI !!!!!!!!!!

" ..... dan jangan kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya
tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, melainkan kaum yang kafir. "
-Surah Yusof ayat 87


Semoga segala persoalan dan rintihan yang melanda jiwa dan sanubari
kita terubat dengan janji-janji Allah..........sesungguhnya kepada
kitab suci Al-Quran lah tempat kita merujuk segala permasalahan.....
kerana ialah penawar.....penawar untuk kita.........marilah kita
kembali kepada Al-Quran.....kembali mengamalkan ajaran yang
terkandung sepenuhnya........semoga Allah memberkati sahabat-sahabat
di sana....


wassalam.....


Syukran Jazilan ..

Friday, September 17, 2004

malacca

i am off to Malacca this morning for the Staff Outing...boleh balik rumah mak sekejap. :)

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Gmail Invitation

Today aku dapat email invitation create account kat Gmail....1000MB free storage. Seronoknya....tak payah nak risau nak kena delete email.

The email goes like this..


I've been using Gmail and thought you might like to try it out. Here's
an invitation to create an account.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------

A*** R**** has invited you to open a free Gmail account. The invitation
will expire in three weeks and can only be used to set up one account.

To accept this invitation and register for your account, visit
http://gmail.google.com/gmail************

Once you create your account, A*** R**** will be notified with
your new @gmail.com address so you can stay in touch with Gmail!

If you haven't already heard about Gmail, it's a new search-based
webmail
service that offers:

- 1,000 megabytes (one gigabyte) of free storage
- Built-in Google search that instantly finds any message you want
- Automatic arrangement of messages and related replies into
"conversations"
- Text ads and related pages that are relevant to the content of your
messages

Gmail is still in an early stage of development. If you set up an
account, you'll be able to keep it even after we make Gmail more
widely available and as one of the system's early testers, you will
be helping us improve the service through your feedback. We might ask
for your comments and suggestions periodically and we appreciate your
help in making Gmail even better.

Thanks,

The Gmail Team

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

More Than Words - Extreme

My favourite song of all time...




>Saying I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know


What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you


More than words


Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know


What would you do if my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying I love you


More than words



Thursday, September 09, 2004

Terima Kasih Sayang


"Kita jatuh cinta bukan sebab berjumpa dengan
orang yang sempurna tetapi setelah kita belajar
menerima segala yang ada pada diri dia."

Mutiara kata diblog Eisya mengingatkan aku pada perbualan telefon antara aku dan dia tempohari. Dia memulakan bicara dengan satu soalan yang menyebabkan aku hilang kata-kata untuk seketika.

"What if i don't love you anymore".

Tak tahu apa yang kurasa masa itu, betul ke apa yang kudengar? Setelah bersoaljawab, akhir aku dapat mengerti kenapa soalan itu diajukan. Dia tidak mahu aku rasa menyesal di kemudian hari kerana memilihnya. Tidak mahu aku bergelar j**** pada awal perkahwinan kami. Aduh..terlalu jauh dia berfikir. Bukan aku tak pernah berfikir tentang itu, pernah tapi aku sudah mengambil keputusan untuk bersama dia.

Walaupun ianya seketika cuma, aku sudah bersyukur disayangi dia dan aku berharap aku dapat membahagiakan dia. Dia kata aku tak faham situasi dia yang sebenarnya. Memang aku tidak tahu sejauhmana seriusnya kerana dia tidak mahu bercerita. Tak mahu aku risau katanya dulu dan aku tidak mahu mendesak. Aku sudah menerima dia dengan seadanya. Jika tidak, aku sudah pun menarik diri bila mengetahui keadaan dia.

Sayangku mengatasi segalanya. Aku ingin berada disisinya mengharungi segala apa pun. Cuma aku rasa sedih bila dia kata dia tidak mahu aku menyesal..seolah-olah mempertikaikan penerimaanku dan membiarkan persoalan itu bermain difikirannya sebegitu lama.



"Kan senang kalau i kata i don't love you anymore, but i couldn't".

Tika itu aku rasa hidup macam novel² yang pernah kubaca. Hero/heroin dalam novel menyatakan atau melakukan sesuatu untuk membolehkan pasangannya meneruskan hidup tanpa kehadiran dia semata kerana tak mahu pasangannya merasa sedih bila dia 'pergi' nanti.

Kini baru aku faham kenapa dia belum bersedia..ini adalah satu daripada sebabnya. Jika inilah perjalanan hidup yang sudah tertulis di Luth Mahfuz sana, aku redha.



P/S
Terima kasih Sayang. Kini diri ini lebih memahami.


If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one
Then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one
Then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine
Then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine
Would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away
But I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms






Mask-Querade


The closing years of life are like the
end of a masquerade party when the
masks are dropped.

Arthur Schopenhauer (1788 - 1860)

In two weeks or so, company aku akan buat Staff Motivational Outing cum Family Day cum Annual Dinner. Bulan September ni banyak things yang kena attend, mungkin sebab bulan depan nak puasa so everything being squeezed in this month.

  • 15-16th September : In-house Training
  • 15th September (Evening ) : Annual Cocktail
  • 15-16th September : Staff Motivational Outing cum Family Day cum Annual Dinner
  • 22-24th September : Team Building Programme In Langkawi ( sadly, i couldn't go because of the ROOTS..hate it )
  • 24th, 27-30th : ROOTS Consulting





    Berbalik pasal dinner tu..semua staff diberikan eye mask each and kena decorate using your own creativity. So, sekarang ni tengah fikir camner nak buat. Rasa nak buat ala-ala

    yang ini atau yang ini. Aku pun tak tahu whether is any prixw for yang eye mask paling cantik. Tak kisah ada hadiah or not..paling utama nak menang lucky draw. Doakan ya..
  • Friday, September 03, 2004

    Anwar Ibrahim set free



    I was told from my Investment staff that the market share is going up because Anwar is free. My cousin, who is a reporter, confirmed the news few minutes later.


    Source BBC News

    Anwar Ibrahim was sacked six years ago
    The jailed former Deputy Prime Minister of Malaysia, Anwar Ibrahim, will be set free, after the country's highest court overturned his sodomy conviction.
    The decision came six years to the day after his dramatic sacking by Malaysia's then Prime Minister, Dr Mahathir Mohammed.

    He was imprisoned in 1999 and had lost earlier appeal against his conviction.

    He is now expected to travel to Germany to receive treatment for a back injury he says he suffered when arrested.


    The country's former police chief was responsible for a beating he received when first arrested in September 1998, Anwar says.

    "He is free to go, there is no doubt it," said his lawyer Pawancheek Marican when the verdict was announced.

    He is expected to leave custody later on Thursday.


    Anwar was jailed in 1999 for corruption after a trial widely seen as politically motivated. It followed his disagreement with Mahathir Mohammad over how to run the country's economy.

    In 2000, he received a further nine years for sodomy.

    Anwar had already failed to reverse the first of those convictions.

    Thursday's appeal to Malaysia's Federal Court - the country's highest - was the last legal opening for the former minister.

    The court was reviewing an earlier rejection of Anwar's appeal - but decided to quash the original conviction by a vote of 2-1.

    "We allow the sentence and conviction to be set aside. We find the High Court misdirected itself. He should have been acquitted," said Judge Abdul Hamid Mohamad, head of a three-judge panel.

    The BBC's Jonathan Kent in Kuala Lumpur says Anwar's continued imprisonment had posed problems for the government of current Prime Minister Abdullah Badawi.

    Although his star has waned since the days when thousands marched in protest at his treatment, many in Malaysia and abroad still regarded him as a political prisoner.




    Wednesday, September 01, 2004



    Laziness is nothing more
    than the habit of resting
    before you get tired.
    Jules Renard (1864 - 1910)



    Bangun pagi tadi rasa arghhhhhhh malasnyer nak gi kerja...rasa nak lepak kat rumah and baring2 sambil meluruskan tulang belakang. Aku gah kan juga pergi ke office and buang rasa malas ni. Aku pun tak tahu apa aku buat kat office..tak banyak sangat kerja. Terasa macam nak makan Cream Cheese Stuffed Crust Pizza dari Pizza Hut. Dah few days rasa camtu..macam craving pulak. hihihi