Ingin dia tahu

tetiba aku jadi sangat rindu pada dia..and i can't tell him i that
i want him to know that he is still in my mind after all these years.
he will not like it..he would want me to move on.
i did but it did not went that well..in times i missed him so.

Dream and Reality

some of our dreams will never turn into a reality, no matter how hard we tried. it's kinda tough but we got to learn to live with it or forever live in denial.

time to grow up
accept the reality
and move on

fullstop.

Taiping : a simple but very memorable journey

once in a blue, comes along someone you can get along really well and have the same wavelength Alhamdulillah, i had great pleasure of experiencing the most memorable holiday in my life so far with 3 wonderful person.

Amar, he is someone dear to my heart whom i have befriend with him for more than 10 years. Syukur, it stay strong until now. Cekya, she is like a sister to me whom i share my ups n down with...i know i can count on her. Addy, is a new addition and the youngest among us. Still lots to know about him but so far, i have no complaints.

At first, I was reluctant to bring Amar over to the picnic at Putrajaya...i was scared if he couldn't get along with Addy and Kadok. Then putting aside the negative thoughts, i let him do so. Frankly, i am very glad i did that. He aced.

i can't remember who suggested Taiping trip but i do know these :-
a. i had a very good time and keep playing in my mind over and over again.
b. we can say just practically anything about each other and then laugh about it out loud.
c. we treated every place we visited as if we are at our own living room
d. we are photo-fetish..that explains the thousand over photos that we took.
e. Amar and addy are like old married couple. They fight like nobody business but they still care about each other. Cekya and myself are the mediator. :)
f. wish kadok and as were there too
g. i can do this again and again...

My personal note:-
Amar - i personally don't say this a lot...love you. it feels like old times. thanks for being our supir.
Cekya - there's a lot of things i don't share with others, let alone my sister but with you, i want to tell everything...be the 1st one to know.
Addy - welcome abroad. please be patient with us..we can go crazy in times.

Taiping brings lots of memories, fonder hearts and the experience beyond words. I love them all for making the journey a memorable one..

Uneasy Feelings.

The visit the doctor's office this morning leave me with an uneasy feelings until now. The urine test showed a 56L/mg reading on urine albumin. Then normal reading should be below 21 L/mg. It means some problem with the kidney. Even though according to the doctor the leakage is only 2%, it still worries me. Instantly, i pictured my mom and what she been through all these years and it scared me to the bones. Tried very hard to contain my tears in front of the doctor. Perhaps what i am feeling is only 1% of those who been told that they have terminal illness and have few months to live. Nevertheless, it was enough to make me shivered and it has somehow affected my mood.

He then prescribed with hypertension pills to prevent more leakage. According to the doctor, the hypertension pills have dual function and one of it is to prevent the leakage from becoming worse. But first, I have to do blood profile in order determine the dosage for me which i will only start after my traveling.

This is a wake up call for me to change my lifestyle. I need to start exercising, control my glucose level, do more reading, see a dietitian etc.. I hope i have a very strong willpower to do all this.

Thanks my dear friends for all your support and advices. Please pray for me.

here i belong...

After using wordpress for few months..i think, i prefer using blogspot. It is much more easy.

I haven't blog for quite sometime. Did i miss it? Frankly, i did not...but i miss my blogsahabat. Not only that i did not update my blog, i also did not update myself with my blogsahabat latest news.

I met Richa in person, at last. Pretty lil girl. Went to Kadok's place with Cekya and Addy (whom i also met for the first time). Enough said, we had a good day and planning for a picnic after this.

Till next time, take care.