opppss i change the template

Oh my! Oh my!…kenapalah gatal nau tangan usik template setting and now i have changed my layout without saving the old template html code. All the bloggers links are gone..

Me and my itchy hand...

One who feel excited

Bloghopping few blogs yesterday with excitement. It's good to see that my fellow blogger has been updating their blog. Feels like old time. I added their links to my blog for my easy reading. i will keep adding to the list. Not writing for a while, my writing skill is so rusty. Sigh! My observation, most of us start blogging around 10 years ago and stop blogging when FB came around. It's time for a comeback.

Last night i completed 'bunga pahar' ordered by Kak Mas. Tissue flower with ribbons. I will be delivery them to Tanjung Malim this Saturday. Hope they will like it.

Zumba class after work today...first Zumba class organised by the office's sport club. I have been slacking in my daily exercise this week. Need to push myself to be consistent in my exercise if i want to control my sugar and be more healthy.

Blog Revival Day

Thanks to those who initiated ‘Blog Revival Day’. My blog do need resuscitation as it has been idle for quite sometime…a very long time, I must say. I hope with the Blog Revival Day, the blogging arena will become active again.

Ever since the existence of Facebook, the urge to blog slowly thinning and diminishing. Most of us started blogging in 2004 and so did i. I met great people through blogging and few of them are now my blogsahabats, whom I consider as family.

Each of us have stories to tell, we laugh and cry at it but most important we support each other in time of needs. I have been through leaps and bounds in these few years and a close friend whom I know through blogging is always with me until now. The blogging arena has somewhat create a support group without we realising it.

Blogging – where people meet people and strangers become friends.

Positive Change….

Last Friday, my boss called me. A new tasks is being given. I will be heading the A&L Dept with a colleague on top of the dept i am heading now.

Am happy and scared at the same time. Am happy that i was given an opportunity to do something totally new from what i have been doing all these years and scared if i might fail in fulfilling the responsibilities being handed upon me. Looking  at it in a positive way and will act prudently.

On Tuesday, we were hit we another major decision. We are now have to take up the tasks without the staffs for 2 weeks. This going to be a challenge for me. Nevertheless, i am going to do my very best and prove my capabilities. For the trust my boss vested in me, i shall not let her down.

May Allah guidance is with me.

Soul Search

Just sometimes I feel small, lost and numb.
Numb because I want so much more in life
Expected too much and left me feeling frustrated

Maybe I need to do soul searching
Searching what is that I really want in life
Searching ways to correct my relationship
with Him, The Creator, The Best Planner

Maybe then, just maybe then
I shall find peace with myself,

Welcoming 2015

Assalamualaikum...

Memang sudah lama aku tidak really write in here. Rasanya skill untuk menulis dgn baik pun berkarat and tak diasah. Mungkin in 2015, I should blog more often.

Today is the 5th day of 2015. Alhamdulillah, so far it has been great. I was at Janda Baik on new year...with good company. It was fun indeed something I would cherish. But somehow I wish that could share the joy with Cekya...I want her to forget her grief for a while. As I am writing this, I feel the sadness.

Lately, I  am not spending much time with her and I feel so bad. In shaa Allah will try to spend more time with her this 2015.

Not like last year, I have resolutions this year...this is some of it with I hope to achieve.

a. In finding my soul and love my Creator and His Prophet pbuh, I want to
    - Khatam the Quran at least once
    - Attend more kuliyyah
b. Travel more
c. Do more charity

 I shall stop here for now...until dapat momentum to write lagi. Spread the love and not hate.

MBC Redah Penang - Day 1 - Part1

Wow, my last update was in 2012. How long ago is that? Sorry dear blog for not updating, guess I was too carried away with FB (excuses, excuses..hehehe).

Lets blog about my MBC Redah Penang recently.


It all started when Moji put up an announcement inviting those interested to join his trip to Penang. Frankly, initially I was having a bit of inferiority complex and contemplating as to whether I should go or not. Then i said to myself - 'just do it, take risk and go with the flow. This is not your first time meeting with strangers.'

When I told few of my friends that I was going for a Penang  trip with bunch of strangers, they were in awe. Sometimes you just have be bold.

On Friday 31^st October 2014, I went to Puduraya and try to find Ruangan Menunggu A.  I tell you, Puduraya lot so different from the last time I was there. Manage to find the meet up point at the end.  After  twice entering and exiting the meet up point I decided to ask a group of ladies if they are heading for Penang.  The first person I met, Zyra who replied to my question. Then I get to know  Jie and Asri who were kind enough to invite me to have dinner with them. Thereafter, there were exchanges of handshakes and names. But frankly, I lost track of their names shortly after that...my bad.

Few minutes to 12am, Moji arrived with tickets in hand and well as the Hashtee we ordered. After sorting out the tickets and shirts to its owner. Took our first group photos and we boarded the bus. Lets the journey start!

 

I tell you, it has been ages since I last took an express bus. The bus stopped few times because of some problem with the air-conditioning. I sat next to Aila in the bus...a sweet sailor.

Around 5ish am we reach the bus station. Had our breakfast before to the bus station.

After filling our stomach with packed 'nasi lemak', we headed to the bus station waiting for those on board of different bus.

 Linda and Liena took a different bus. Met us in Penang.

 UIA students

 Miah...smiling at someone?

'Satu utk kau, satu utk aku'

 

 

Moji informed that us that Zila and Nani who are supposed to me us at the bus station somehow ended up in Sg. Petani. Luckily, Hafna came to rescue and bring them here.

 

Penang Island here we come....MBC ferry ride.

 



the girls feeling excited  

 

 

 Moji and Nani (all the way from Sg Petani...hehehe)
 

 Zyra 'GoPro' with Dan & Hattasan....smile, caught in camera
 

 Say cheese....and cover your mouth.

 

After half an hour, we reached the island. Need to wait for few more who missed the first ferry trip.

 Guys Talk

 

 Girls talk

 

 Students Talk

 

Us Talking




Ezwan and his phone

 

 

Walking to 'our house' of 2 days

To be continued...





.

let them..

Remarks being passed. I am the wrongdoer in their eyes..people has the rights to their own thoughts. It's better not to say anything, when saying will worsen the situation.

In some part of our life, we will go through a life changing and eye-opening experience. Some that we learnt from and some we didn't. i tend to take something away from this..which i did not before.

Quiet Emotion

I know lots of questions arise at the back of their heads but some things are just better be left unsaid to avoid all possible judgements. It will end up hurting others and myself. Past experience taught me so.


The bond will always be there
the friendship always intact;
But the time for us has come and gone
and the pages of time, you can't turn back.

I will always be a friend to you
and wonder how you are;
The smiles and laughter I will remember
and our fights have become painless scars.

Sometimes on those busy days
when you've a thousand things to do;
Please let me glide slowly through your mind
and spend some time with you.

In that quiet moment
when you're surprised to find me there;
Just remember even with the distance between us
I am still someone who cares.

Quiet Emotions

by Judy Burnette

Infatuate...

it has been a long long time since i feel this way...having a crush over someone. somewhat ridiculous at this age. He do not fit in my selection criteria, even more so he is younger than me but definitely something about him catches my attention.

i should vanquish all these and watch out for the torns...this is only wishful thinking

there..i say it!

Doing it all again....

i got know that the landlord is selling the house on the 2nd week i moved in when the malay couple came to visit. I was told back then the new owner intended to treat it as an investment. It gave me a big relief as my contract expires in November. Today after 4 months, i was told the opposite and what me even furious knowing that they want to move out immediately. The landlord agreed to pay them 2 months rental out of her pocket, giving me the 2 months notice to look up for a new place.

it kinda hit me hard thinking about all the things that i need to do..the packing and unpacking, relocating Astro, the phone and internet line to the new place, not to mention finding a place and transportation...doing it all by myself. I still feel the tiredness from the last moving. That was when i cried and thought how i wish i have someone in my life i can depend on.

maybe i am tired of being alone after all....

Atok...you are in my heart always

i was eagerly waiting for the weekend as my sister and her family planned to stay over at my place but after midnight i received a call that Atok was in a critical condition. Quickly packed my things and rushed back to Malacca. On the way, i decided to call Achik to check on Atuk's condition but to know that he has left us all. It is not something unexpected considering his old age and health condition but maybe i don't expect it would be so soon.

When i was small i love to watch Atok prepared his roti canai dough and he will sometimes give us a lil bit of the dough for us to play with. I still remember his 'kuah dalca'..it is so yummy and it has been my benchmark for 'kuah dalca' for all roti canai. Still clear in my mind helping Atok at his small restaurant by the beach.

He cooked for weddings including for few of cousins' big day. I love helping him with the preparation and cooking...a good way to develop my passion for cooking. More often than not, helping him has become a great pleasure until one of his helper said that i should get Atok to inherit me his recipes. I guess he has passed down all his recipes to my aunts and eventually down to us, his grandchildren.

His 'basikal tua' brings lots of memories to me...to my siblings and my cousins. It was his main transportation to go about and around. He cycled his 'basikal tua' to his small restaurant, mosque and sometimes visiting his childrens whether at home or stalls. We, the grandchildren love to play around with the bicycle. With that his 'basikal tua' i learned to cycle and my newly bought pyjama was torn because of that.

These few days i heard good things about Atok...poeple acknowledged his contributions to the mosque. One said Atok brought some changes while he was the imam. i also heard my uncle telling my aunt, an ustaz told his jamaah at the surau ( after knowing that Atok has passed away) how Atok still remember surah2 Sajadah at his age of 96. Despite his weak conditions, Atok still performed his prayers. Even an hour or so before he passed on, he told Achik he wanted to perform his prayer..but due the chaotic moment it he did not got the chance to perform his prayer.

My cousins and me sometimes teased him from far by saying "kesian org cina tua tu naik basikal"..this was because Atok's mom (our great grandmother) was from Hong Kong. Even Atok was born there...in Wan Chai. He told me, our great grandfather was HQ was in Wan Chai and he was based there. i guess he met my great grandmother over there.

Atok was shipcaptain before he got himself involved in business but he left his job during the war. Alhamdulillah he quit, the ship then was bombed by the Japanese.

This is not to brag about Atok, just express my admiration towards him and to share my story about him. He is my idol and he will be missed so dearly..

tranquility

my life is somewhat meaningful nowadays...there are things to look forward to rather than feeling blue. I have learn to push the negativity away and think of good things. i have great friends to thank to. Perhaps the new workplace have actually lessen my worries and burden, one thing that i am glad for. Maybe, just maybe it grows with the age. 2012 has been great so far.

Not forgetting my nephews and niece that have colour my life with their existence. I just wish that my parents have the chance to meet Ashraff and Aina..which is unlikely at the moment.

I know few of my friends are struggling in their life journey...my prayers are always with them. Insya'allah things are going to be better, don't give up. i heard this in Radio Ikim..

"yang baik tak semestinya baik dan yg tidak baik tidak semestinya tidak baik. Allah Maha Mengetahui"

Yeay!! Let's Blog and Rock

I am glad that Cekya decided to start blogging again…am hoping that others will also follow suit.
Let’s continue with the old routine..visiting each other blog. Masyi and Lun..waiting for you guys to update. I know Cekmi, Jimi and Awan still update their blogs. Awan, please open the blog to all..miss reading it.

Welcoming myself to the blogging area...again

it has been really really long since i last stepped here. today, whilst driving to work, i told myself perhaps i should blog again. I know most of us have stop blogging with the existence of facebook, twitter and other social medias as status can be updated whenever and wherever.

let's blog again...i met a lots of good people through blogging and they are part of my life now.

Another Year...

Looking at old photos, reminiscing the past, remembering how i walked through my life, i must say i am feeling blessed and grateful for all the things i have.

Today, i am a year older and i hope to continue the journey gracefully. Insya'allah.

Coming Home

i am back to where i belong
but yet,

i still feel alone.

Deeply hurt

Right now I am still hurts by some of the things said by them. I wish that one day they will understand how hard it is for me.

I feel so alone, lost and the hurt is deep.

Sorry for everything.

Letting Go

These few weeks has been quite tough for me. I wanted so very much for thing to be like it used to be but everything seems to fall apart and i can't do much about. It is so frustrating and leads me to feel so helpless. One person i am counting also have give up hope, what is there for me to look forward to. There and then i decided to let go eventhough i know letting go is the hardest thing to. I have been clinging to the idea that one day he and me might be together. I have been comparing everyone i am with to him...not a good thing to do but just can't help it. Now after so so many years, nothing seems to change. Worst, we are so drifted away from each other. It has come to a point that i feel i should not dream for the impossible. Maybe it is not meant to be after all. I never thought that a day would come for me to say goodbye to all of it. Kind of sad but there is not point of holding on to something is not there. Going to be hard to kill the feelings and emotions that have built inside me for years.

There still a lot that i want to let out of my system and say to him but i better just stop here. I pray to Allah to give the strength to get through this.

This too shall pass.

Ingin dia tahu

tetiba aku jadi sangat rindu pada dia..and i can't tell him i that
i want him to know that he is still in my mind after all these years.
he will not like it..he would want me to move on.
i did but it did not went that well..in times i missed him so.