Jangan Lepaskan AKu

Dirimu takut
Terjadi yang kau elak
Andai kelak
Kau tak bisa melepaskan aku
dari sanubarimu
Lalu...
Kau cuba lupa cintamu

Bersama kekuatan yang ada
Ke depan aku mara
Pertahankan yang ku mahu
Walau tidak bagimu
Agar satu hari dirimu mengerti
Kasih ku setulus, sepenuh hati
Lalu hadir kasihmu sekali lagi

Jangan lepaskan aku
Hatiku hanya milikmu
Tiada dua, tiada tiga
Hanya dirimu sahaja
Walaupun seketika cuma
Aku sudah cukup bahagia


P/S : Bagaimana aku harus menyakinkan dia kasihku seikhlas hati, ingin susah dan senang bersama. Berilah kesempatan itu.

Selamat Berpuasa untuk semua.

What Hurts The Most

i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don’t bother me
i can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
i’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me
there are days every now and again i pretend i’m ok
but that’s not what gets me

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was tryin’ to do

it’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but i’m doin’ it
it’s hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i’m alone
still harder
getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
but i know if i could do it over
i would trade give away all the words that i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

not seeing that loving you
that’s what i was trying to do

Hari Ini, Esok Dan Seterusnya

hari ini dadaku bergetar
terguncang memilu dan mengerang
ku yakin ku tak salah
karna hatiku tak pernah dan takkan berdusta

cinta cinta cinta
aku jatuh cinta

esoknya ku pikir rasa itu
akan menghilang dengan seiring waktu
namun ternyata tak berubah
aku makin tergiur pada dirimu

cinta cinta cinta
aku jatuh cinta

dan seterusnya rasa ini selalu terjadi
dan tak pernah berkurang
hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
aku bahagia hanya bila kamu bahagia

esoknya ku pikir rasa itu
akan menghilang dengan seiring waktu
namun ternyata tak berubah
aku makin tergiur pada dirimu

cinta cinta cinta
aku jatuh cinta

dan seterusnya rasa ini selalu terjadi
dan tak pernah berkurang
hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
aku bahagia hanya bila kamu bahagia

dan seterusnya rasa ini selalu terjadi
dan tak pernah berkurang
hatiku hanya untuk dirimu
aku bahagia hanya bila kamu bahagia

p/s : cekmi ~ thanks for the cd. love all the songs...this is one of my favourite apart from My Heart and Sampai Menutup Mata been listening to it. Am planning to watch the movie.

Anticipation of Baby..nervous vs excitement

i am feeling nervous and excited at the same time. i got my OPM presentation tomorrow...a group presentation. Apart from the lecturer evaluation, i will also be appraised my classmates. It is not so much about the evaluation but more afraid of being bombarded with questions from the lecturer and one particular person of the floor. Need to read the report over and over again..if i can't answer 100 percent right at least 85-90 percent correct. Last week, we started on a new subject , Managerial Decision Analysism (QMT). I did not attend the 1st class as my cousin wedding was on the same day. I read the handout and only able understand 5 percent of what i read.It was like reading without absorbing anything. Those who attended the class find it hard to understand, what more me who did not attend the class. My fellow classmate called it Quantitative Memang Teruk = QMT. What even worse, i just got to know from Aya last wednesday that we need to submit the first assignment on sunday...somehow my name was not in the mailing list and i did not get any of their emails. No one is able to do it yet..that is bad. Called a fellow colleague in HQ asking about QMT. He told me he did not understand a thing and decision tree is the most simpliest topic in QMT. Ouch. Even the simpliest one i can't understand, i wonder about the other topics.

Baby. She been given that name and that is the name i will be calling her. She is the new girl in town. The one i have been waiting for 4 months. I have been counting the days when i will meet her for the first time. it is just around the corner and i am waiting eagerly. Am so excited. Going to meet her this sunday. My Baby..my persian cat.

Me, Cekya, Cekmi, Tatot and Awan (hopefully ) will be meeting each other at Kampung Baru today. Cekmi...u will be our target as always. The topic of the day Cik Norkiah..Nokia.

sweet surprise

last nite i received unexpected sms. was caught by surprise. I sent sms to a friend few minutes before and i thought it was his reply. when i saw his name appearing, i was a bit stunned. he really knocked my socks off. i paused for a while absent-mindedly and looked back at the phone if i had read it wrongly. NO!!! i did not.

was happy and astonished at the same time. i haven't heard from him for such a long time. i did smsed him occassionally, but there were no reply. I even seek I_mshe's assistance to call his mobile which she did (thanks dear). Feeling dispaired, i ceased to sms him or call. Often enough i will be wondering about him and his condition. there are also times when i missed him so. we exchanged few sms until i wished him good nite. Alhamdulillah. It's great to know that he is not giving up.

Until now i still could not believe that he sms'ed me. i am in his thoughts after all. i pray it will not only be smses, that he will call me one day. I can just hope and pray, rite? What can't i feel the love i have for him? Does that means that i have now let it go? or it is still there just a matter of pulling a trigger to get it activated? or Allah is telling me that i am now ready to move on? i don't know. what i do know now is that i am happy with this sweet surprise and i longed to hear from him again. i miss him.

dearest..thanks. eventhough the smses were simple, it meant a lot to me.

can you wait?

am supposed to update on the Karambunai trip and pictures..later okay guess, kinda busy.

New Home

My blogsahabats have been complaining having difficulty visiting to my blog. Not only them, i am also have problem viewing my blog. For that reason, i now move here. Not mentioning the ever-ready-templates that are made available.

I am in a process of transfering all my previous postings here..it will take a while.

I WELCOME ALL OF YOU TO MY NEW HOME

lupakan

aku perlu bersabar dan perlu mengakui hakikat yang dia bukan lagi dia yang dulu. sebaiknya aku bertindak seperti cekya dan juga seperti rakan i_mshe. semudah itukah? jika itu yang terbaik untukku harus ku teruskan jua. persetankan persahabatan jika ia hanya mampu melukakan hati. terlalu emotional kah aku?

aku ada kalian semua..yang mampu membuatku tersenyum di kala duka. sudah cukup untukku.


HAM-BURGER - Slank
Sahabat datang dan pergi, kadang mengkhianati
Begitu pun rasa cinta, kadang mengecewakan
Kita punya harga diri, kadang terpendam di hati
Kita punya hati nurani, kadang tertimbun mati!!!

Ku tertawa walau hati kecewa
Ya kupaksa untuk tetap tertawa!!!
Ku bernyanyi walau hati menangis
Ya kucoba untuk terus bernyanyi!!!

Walau kau ikat tanganku, walau kau bungkam mulutku
Walau kau jegal langkahku, percuma!!!
Walau kau tutup mataku, walau kau kurung tubuhku
Tapi semua mimpi-mimpiku kan tetap ada!!!
Kita coba betulkan jalan kita bersama
Coba kita mencari jalan keluar
Jangan kau tunggu orang lain, jangan biarkan bangsa lain
Mencoba menekan hidup kita, bikin malu saja!!!

Ku tertawa walau hati kecewa
Ya kupaksa untuk tetap tertawa!!!
Ku bernyanyi walau hati menangis
Ya kucoba untuk terus bernyanyi!!!

Banyak orang curiga, ku bicara nggak ada yang percaya
Banyak orang menuduh bahkan anggapku gila!!!
Ku tertawa lebih keras, ku bernyanyi lebih lantang
Karena semua langkah dan mimpiku kan semakin gila!!!
Ku tertawa walau hati kecewa...
Ku bernyanyi walau hati menangis...
Ku tertawa walau hati kecewa
Ya kupaksa untuk tetap tertawa!!!

Ku bernyanyi walau hati menangis
Ya kucoba untuk terus bernyanyi!!!

back in kl

Happy Birthday Cekmi
Thanks for the giving me the opportunity to be one of the crew. Because of that i got to know the blogsahabats that have  such a wonderful people to me and has helped me a lot in my journey..that includes u too.

Guys..will tell you abt the trip in my next posting. Just reached home and visit all my blogsahabats' blog. Miss you guys.