last nite i received unexpected sms. was caught by surprise. I sent sms to a friend few minutes before and i thought it was his reply. when i saw his name appearing, i was a bit stunned. he really knocked my socks off. i paused for a while absent-mindedly and looked back at the phone if i had read it wrongly. NO!!! i did not.
was happy and astonished at the same time. i haven't heard from him for such a long time. i did smsed him occassionally, but there were no reply. I even seek I_mshe's assistance to call his mobile which she did (thanks dear). Feeling dispaired, i ceased to sms him or call. Often enough i will be wondering about him and his condition. there are also times when i missed him so. we exchanged few sms until i wished him good nite. Alhamdulillah. It's great to know that he is not giving up.
Until now i still could not believe that he sms'ed me. i am in his thoughts after all. i pray it will not only be smses, that he will call me one day. I can just hope and pray, rite? What can't i feel the love i have for him? Does that means that i have now let it go? or it is still there just a matter of pulling a trigger to get it activated? or Allah is telling me that i am now ready to move on? i don't know. what i do know now is that i am happy with this sweet surprise and i longed to hear from him again. i miss him.
dearest..thanks. eventhough the smses were simple, it meant a lot to me.