Life is a walk across a field

It is only few hours before the clock strikes 12am, marking a new year. A new beginning for some people. What has 2007 brought you? For me 2007 has surely spices up my life in so many ways.

I tendered my resignation letter in November..one thing i thought i never do even in my 6 years of working with the company. I know i had future with the company but i guess it is a decision i had to make for a better career advancement. I have grudges..but i guess most of you know about it. Someone said don't burn your bridges...intend not to do so, with some people that is.
I completed my MBA this year..it's my personal achievement. Something that i am proud of. Eventhough my earlier target was to do it after 3 year of working..but it's better late than never. Relationship..ermm, i am still single. Yes..i do hope that i will end my single life in 2007 but i guess one can only dream..i got few more hours to dream.
I make lots of new friends this year..friends of friends. And i still think that i need a new circle of friends without neglecting the existing friends.
Exquis Images...exquisite images. Yes, that is the name that we agreed to be in our name cards. We have been quite busy lately with photoshots and Cekya have put in trust for me to handle all the admin tasks..hope that i won't let her down.

2007 has been a great journey...a walk through life that will turn into memorable moments.

What are my hopes and resolution for 2008? I will tell you later in my next entry. Till then..

Goodbye 2007 and Welcome 2008. Happy New Year To All.

Bookmark
by Dave Kartzman
Let me be a bookmark in your life;
Crafted with our love
And the coloured inks
of our words;
A weathered parchment
of my soul
Upon your memory.

As you walk through life,
Other chapters will be scripted.
Someday,
you will reflect,
Tabbing back to the bookmark we built,
Remembering . . .

So your baby is here! What joy and what pleasure!

As promised, this my niece..little Ivana Marcella. New addition to the clan. Such a sweetie pie. To Yan and Aezril...

A Baby Changes Things

A baby changes things;
They’ll never be the same;
Your life is filled with wonder,
Since your little miracle came.

There’s lots of things to do now,
But with the new tasks you face,
Your family gains more love,
And bonds time will never erase.

Congratulations on your new addition!

By Karl and Joanna Fuchs

'Tis So Much Joy! 'Tis So Much Joy!

2008 resolutions? I think i need to have that. Few weeks back i found one of my notebook. I was flipping through pages and a page caught the attention of my eyes. Can't help but to smile. Somewhere in 2002, I put down a few things i want to achieve and totally forget all about it. These were the targets :-
a. Complete my ACII
b. Pursue MBA
c. Become an Assistant Manager
d. Have underwriting knowlegde
e. Leadership skills
g. Get married

Yes!! I have achieved most of what being listed down except for the last. It feels so nice, so content. A triumph. A good deed to myself. Perhaps this year i should map out what are my future targets...the last one without exception. winks. winks

How about you guys? Anything in mind?

Climb Till Your Dream Comes True - Helen Steiner Rice,

often your task will be many,
and more than you think you can do..
often the hills insurmountable, too..
but always remember..
the hills ahead are never as steep as they seem,
and with faith in your heart, start upward
and climb 'til you reach your dream.
for nothing in life that is worthy
is ever too hard to achieve
if you have the faith to believe..
for faith is a force that is greater
than knowledge or power or skill
and many defeats turn to triumph
if you trust in god's wisdom and will..
there is nothing that god cannot do,
so start out today with faith in your heart
and climb 'til your dream comes true.

If there were dreams to sell, What would you buy?

Of late life been pretty busy...keep me occupied. I like being around with people i love..sharing witty stories that tickle your heart and made you burst with laughters. Because once at home by myself, the loneliness haunts and mind boggling questions will definitely come across my mind. What will become of me? What future will brings me? Yeah..yeah i know. I am the one who are going to set the course to where is it going and how. The thing is, i am still in quest of what i really want...but i can't be twiddling my thumbs forever, can i?.

One for sure, i don't want to stay single all my life. Then again, i don't want the degree of freedom i enjoy now is being ripped off me. I want everything. I am selfish.

My thoughts soar not as they ought to soar,
Higher and higher on soul-lent wings;
But ever and often and more and more
They are dragged down earthward by little things,
By little troubles and little needs,
As a lark might be tangled among the weeds.

My purpose is not what it ought to be,
Steady and fixed, like a star on high,
But more like a fisherman's light at sea;
Hither and thither it seems to fly--
Sometimes feeble, and sometimes bright,
Then suddenly lost in the gloom of night.

My life is far from my dream of life--
Calmly contented, serenely glad;
But, vexed and worried by daily strife,
It is always troubled and ofttimes sad--
And the heights I had thought I should reach one day
Grow dimmer and dimmer, and farther away.

My heart never finds the longed-for rest;
Its worldly striving, its greed for gold,
Chilled and frightened the calm-eyed guest
Who sometimes sought me in days of old;
And ever fleeing away from me
Is the higher self that I long to be.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

what are the blessings of the sight

I would be lying if i say i did not put any hope or even daydreamed it might have work out well. Almost like a fairytale and too good to be true. At the end of the day, I believe Allah knows what is the best for me. I have not regrets but thankful indeed. Alhamdulillah, the act to entice me with all the lovey dovey thingy did not blind my judgment and be firm of what or how i want it to be. Juicy stories can be fabricated..just don't discount that.

But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do--
determined to save
the only life you could save.

Mary Oliver

Cekya-thanks a zillion..for all the insights
Awan-off course, i won't forget you.

Once the package of friendship has been opened..

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand,
nor the kindly smile,
nor the joy of companionship;
it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one
when you discover that someone else believes in you
and is willing to trust you with a friendship.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

and why bother the rest?

what life has thrown me I have caught..

i have learned that
your life can change
in a matter of minutes
by people who don't even know you

I should not dare to leave my friend..

I am changing my blog layout since the previous layout went haywire..kinda lazy to really dig which part of the script that are missing. I shall miss the red apples. I am liking this new look..kinda clean. Ramai yg being away from blogging arena kecuali Lun and Jimi yang sentiasa ada updates. Thot of blogging about it tapi Lun dah blog dulu..hehehe

Lot of things had happened. I got a new niece..Yan's daughter. Ivana Marcella..that is her name. We called her Marcella. Later i'll post her picture..kena minta from Cekya. Talking about Cekya, lately, both of us memang banyak spent time together..mostly related to Exquis Images. Tapi bila dah jumpa tu biasalah..gossip, gossip and gossip.

Last week Aan's mom was admitted in the ICU due to a burst blood vein and had to undergo an operation. Alhamdulillah, the operation went smoothly. Please pray for her speedy recovery. To Aan, semoga tabah menghadapi dugaan Allah.

Workwise. Counting the days to february 2nd. My last day with the company. Kerja pun dah tak banyak..bosanlah juga. Now clearing up apa-apa yang patut. Masih lagi not sure as who will be taking over my portfolio..still looking for the right candidate. Better find soon as i need to do handover thingy before i leave.

Thanks Ligo for the lovely ring and to Jimi for the cd.

A Special Wish

Thoughts Of Love On Your Birthday

Birthdays are occasion
for compliments and praise
And saying many of the things
we don't say other days -
For thoughts of love and gratitude
are fragile, cherished things,
As gossamer as fleecy clouds
or hummingbirds' small wings,
And often through the passing days
we feel deep down inside
Unspoken thoughts of thankfulness
and fond, admiring pride -
But words can say so little
when the heart is overflowing
And often those we love the most
must have no way of knowing
the many things the heart conceals
and never can impart,
For words seem so inadequate
to express what's in the heart -
But since it is your birthday
I thought it would be nice
If I let this first edition verse
by Helen Steiner Rice
In some small way express the things
that I would like to say
Not only on your birthday
but on every other day.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CEKYA....

Hugs & kisses
::wtl::

New Direction

there are so much to tell but i am somewhat lazy these days to blog about it. been a lazy bum i just posted song lyrics in my past 2 entries.

My brother, Anuar got engaged on 3rd raya. I got to know about it when on last day of Ramadhan. It was a very simple engagement ceremony since his fiancee's dad just past away 2nd week of Ramadhan in his sleep. Alfatihah.

Remember the SCL thingy..i submitted the letter on Thursdays, first week after raya. The day before i got a call from someone asking me if am i still interested to join them but for a lower post. Was quite surprised because earlier she said there will an opening only in January. I guess this is my rezeki. Without hesitation i said yes. Went for the interview on the arranged date and the next day she called me up and said i got the job. Alhamdulillah. I was so happy and smiling the whole day through. One morning my immediate superior called and asked me if i heard of anyone leaving the company. OMG..did she actually know? I mentioned one of my colleague's name and avoiding to let her know as i have not get my letter of offer. She later called Maddy seeking for confirmation. Only our bosses did not know that i was leaving but he did smsed from Bali wanting to know who else will be leaving and they did not tell him. Surprise..surprise.

The D-day finally arrived. the convocation went well. with smiles all over our faces. we didn't thought that we made it. many of us planned to quit, myself without exclusion. to my surprise one even went to the office to sent the form with the intention to quit but unfortunately the office was closed. he have no other choice but to continue with the second semester. had he managed to sent the form, we wouldn't see having a big smile on the convocation day. When we first started there we about 37 of us in the class but only 14 managed to complete on time and graduated. To all my beloved classmates..WE MADE IT THROUGH GUYS. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

I tendered a 3 months notice of resignation effective today after signing the offer letter yesterday. Am i happy? I definitely am but at the same time feeling kind of sad knowing that i will be leaving friends that i have known for the past 7 years..friends that i become close with. i shall miss them but i guess i need to think of my future nevertheless.

untuk dia

untuk si dia yang aku kenal
cinta dan sayang aku padanya tidak akan
pernah padam...buatlah aku tersenyum
dengan bahagiakan dirimu
pejamkan mata aku pasti di sisi

kogi - 9 september

kerana dia bukan kamu

Pejamkan Matamu - OST 9 September

kupejamkan mata
kau hadir di sisi
ku hulurkan tangan kau sambut dengan kasih
tenangkanlah hatimu
agar bisaku senyum

Pejamkanlah matamu jika rindukan wajahku
ku pejamkan mata..kau hadir disisi
bisik mesra darimu menyemai kasihku..
bahagiakan dirimu..agar bisaku senyum...

pejamkanlah matamu
kupasti di sisi
untuk dikau kasih ku curahkan cinta suci
yang tak mungkin terpadam
akan terus membara

bahagiakan dirimu
agar bisaku tersenyum
pejamkanlah matamu
jika rindukan wajahku
janji ku kepadamu aku pasti di sisi

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Sukar utk digambarkan perasaan aku di penghujung filem 9 September..mungkin tidak menjangka sebegitu 'ending'nya. Yang pasti ia mengundang rasa sebak yang teramat sangat dan wtl tidak mampu langsung menahan airmata menderu jatuh. Until i had to calm myself down. Pasti orang yg melepasi kami perasan mata and hidung wtl yang merah kerana menangis. Tiada lagi rasa malu..aku berhak atas apa yang aku rasa. Thanks Cekya for the understanding. terlalu sukar menafikan apa yang wtl rasa..terlalu sukar

"because he is not you"

aku mau

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi

Kujanjikan aku ada

Wish For A Rainbow

For all the bad things that had happened, good things will come my way...that is for sure. Positive mind.

Doakan wtl...

Langit dan Awan

Dari kecil aku suka melihat langit. Melihat kepulan awan yang pelbagai bentuk dan rupa. Putih , bersih..mengingatkan aku pada 'cotton candy' setiap kali. Seolah ada satu lagi dunia/negara di situ. Setiap satu seolah ada kisah yang hendak disampaikan. Ia memberikan aku satu rasa yang sukar diungkap, satu ketenangan. Sudah agak lama aku tidak berbuat demikian. Mungkin kerana perhatianku kini lebih tertumpu di jalan raya daripada menikmati keindahan langit dan awan. Apatah lagi aku acapkali pulang ke rumah bila matahari sudahpun terbenam. Mungkin juga sejenak aku terlupa dengan keindahannya. Karambunai..itulah paling akhir aku memandang langit dan awan dengan begitu asyik. Luas terbentang. Captivating.

Petang tadi aku dalam perjalanan pulang, aku berkesempatan menikmati keindahan langit dan awan walau seketika cuma. Ditambah pula dengan pelangi petang . Aku rindu. Rindu melihat langit dan awan.

Aku hanya ingin duduk memandang.

Show cause letter

Pagi2 tadi ada satu email yang really pissed me off. Kurang pahala puasa ku hari ini...pagi-pagi dah curse berbakul-bakul. Yang wtl tak paham orang lain pun ambil EL by informing their peers and subordinates tapi they pick on me. If nak imposed the rules, impose lah kat semua orang..not only towards certain person. Memang cel*** punya perempuan

I think what happened to me is more to a personal attack because i replied to her email and one quite harsh email that was accidently sent to her. Before i went out of the office, she called me and handed a letter. I was required to write a show caused letter stating the reasons for my two earlier EL applications within 7 days from the issuance of the letter which is today. It was signed by my CEO. Failing to do so, a disciplinary action will be taken against me. What the fucking shit is going on here? As far as i am concern, my boss don't have any problem with me taking the EL...why are they making so much fuss out of it. Orang lain pun ambil EL..tak kena pun tulis show cause letter. This is shitty shit.

If memang betul tujuan dia untuk to get back on me..I won't forgive her, never, never in my life.She tarnished my employment record. If i got a better offer elsewhere, i will sure that it will be made known to her of it. Biar it lingers at the back of her mind.

Saat ini i really wish that i got a better offer elsewhere...

It pissed me off..really pissed me of. Damn it!!!!

doakan

Doakan wtl moga berjaya to secure an interview with them and eventually the job.

Happy Birthday, Azell and Wati

Celebrate The Miracle

Of all that makes you YOU.
Count a blessing for each candle
Have your cake and eat it too!

Unwrap this day and savor it
And all the love that's there
Send a dream-wish straight to
Heaven on the wings of prayer

Remember what a blessing you are
Even after this day is gone.
You're a gem, a priceless treasure
Let yourself shine on!

Taken from :
Absolutely Poetry

Azell : Hope you have a great celebration...age is merely numbers.
Wati : Age is merely numbers...have fun. Thanks for being a great cousin. See you at kampung this raya.

Want A Ride..

Stumbled into this cute hello kitty car masa nak beli kuih for berbuka kat Pantai Kundur few weeks back. Teringat cekya...because of the pink colour. Would you go this far?

Sekadar Perlu

terlalu banyak yang ingin diperkatakan, juga rasa yang ingin diluah. tapi aku fikir tak perlu diceritakan segalanya, ianya tak akan pernah habis seperti kisah sang penglipur lara yang tiada penghujungnya. cukup sekadar yang perlu-perlu sahaja. sukar mencari prasa untuk menguraikan rasa ini. sebaik sahaja ku biarkan ia tersimpan. aku juga tidak mahu walau sekelumit rasa bosan di kalangan kalian yang membaca.."the same old things over and over again".

jangan kalian salah sangka, aku bukan membuat pertuduhan. kalian terlalu baik. cuma aku tidak mahu terjadi sebegitu, bila tiba rasa bosan itu wujud. aku tahu perasaannya bila mendengar ujaran yang hanya sekadar berbahasa. hilang sudah keikhlasannya.

so, sekadar yang perlu-perlu sahaja.