Clueless

Need to do something to make my job interesting .Damn…I am bored...sebab tak banyak kerja. I have to practically think of what to do next. Is this one of those days that u rasa u wanna scream your heart out? ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Called my dad before balik. He was at the hospital and when i asked him who was warded, he just replied..nothing to worry. I rasa sure my mom yg masuk hospital. True enough. My dad hantar to the emergency last night sebab she had difficulty breathing. He said now dah okay..dah boleh makan. I did ask him why tak beritahu. He said tak teruk sebab tu tak beritahu...alahai ayahku ini. Sabar jelah. I know he meant well, tak nak us to worry but i would prefer that he would tell tak kira teruk or tak. Doctor said boleh keluar in 1-2 days time. I am going back this weekend. Doakan my mom sihat okay..

where has the rainbow gone

That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

almost everyday i ask myself over and over where did i go wrong. all my apologies didn't mean a thing? 3 years of friendship just went down the drain. i am not asking for much, just what are my mistakes until you shut me off. One day i wish, that we will be friends again. Until that one day comes, you will always be on my mind and prayers.

We have 2 photo jobs this weekend..and few jobs in this months. I have butterflies flying in my stomach. Insya'allah we will do fine. Going to be a tiring month but worthwhile.

Losing someone...

"If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
Id take back those words that have hurt you
And you'd stay"

Losing a friend is never easy..especially those who you share your happiness and sadness with. It is even harder when you eagerly want to share something with her/him and only to notice that she/he is no longer there for you. When a friend become a total stranger, it really sad. It sucks..big time!!!

Been there...and i wonder if i am the one who are overreacted. Ummmhh, i just don't know...i feel numb. Certain things are hard to explain...much more easier to just swallow.

I am supposed to go to Anugerah Planet Muzik with Cekya...got the VIP seat tickets. Did some shopping but still need to buy few things when Cekya called me telling me she can't make it as her aunt had passed away in a car accident. I meet her few times during the monthly tahlil at Cekya's house. All 6 people in the car (including the kids) were injured. Ika, Ira and Mai sustained either a broken land or arm..Mai on top of that suffered a fractured skull. The news really shocked me and i don't feel like going to Anugerah Planet Muzik. Lets pray a speedy recovery for all of them, especially Mai and Alfatihah buat Arwah Ngah.

A year older..

A year older....a year wiser? Not sure..but what i can say i am definitely more mature in my way of thinking and more careful in my actions. I have a fair bit of achievements that i am proud of..way to go gurl. Still, there are rooms to be even better and things that i want to achieve.

Thanks for the wishes.

Wouldn't have thought....

I have been wanting to go to Petronas Gallery as the Matahari exhibition is being held there but keep on delaying. Today with full determination, i walked under the hot sun to KLCC (so not me..) with the high hopes.My mind was focussed on going to the gallery and will just skip lunch. To my disappointment, the exhibition ended two days ago and the gallery is temporarily closed in preparation for another exhibition. Sigh!!! Lesson learnt...don't procrastinate, you will miss out a lot. So, decided to have lunch instead, all by myself.

After lunch, i went to Times and saw Cecelia Ahern's new book is already in store. Definitely to get my hand on that book. Since i still got a lot of time to spare, my next stop was Isetan. At first thought of buying green tea soya bean, but then i just settled for a bottle of creamy green tea. Need to tell Cekya about the book but i kind of forgot the title, so i went back to Times. I can just look through the glass for the book title but i seeing him there at the counter paying for some stuffs he bought, i decided to go in..and just want to see him from a short distance. You can say that i am one of his fans. Others would for artists but i don't. Maybe my interest for crime fictions and series, made me admires him. If I am crazy enough (not crazylogicpopstar aka rene), i would just go towards him and saying hi, letting him knows that i am one of his fans. But being me, i not the daring type. It really made my day and i was smiling all my way back to the office. It was a blessing in disguise..for the gallery being closed today.

New routine..new experience

"Telah jauh terpisah, diriku dan dirimu,
Dalam ruang dan waktu,
Sendiriku jalani sepiku, tanpa dirimu,
Resahku tanpa hadirmu,
Sungguh berat hatiku untuk merasakannya"


It really has been a while since update..not taking into account my previous entry. My life surely has been quite hectic. Next week will mark my second month with the new company. It has been a joyful ride. They are nice people..alhamdulillah. I am reporting to 4 people...but i don't mind. Perhaps like people say if you are happy with the environment, you will find ways to manage all that. One thing i notice, those people are very knowledgeable at what they are doing, very technically sound and things are at their fingertips. I am impress..still am. I hope i will get to learn from them. I meet-up with Cekya even more frequent now that we are nearer to each other...usually after office.

I have to admit it was quite tough at beginning. Not so much on the work but on the travelling. It took me 2 hours to reach the office and another 2 hours going back...and don't let me babble about the train. Sometimes i felt like crying because after a long day at work, taking a fully packed train..standing all the way from KLCC to Kelana Jaya, i still need to drive for about 30-40 mins to reach home. No more reaching home at 6.30pm. Now i am quite used to it already and furthermore next year we will be moving out to our own place in Bangsar..so for now, just bear with it.

Yesterday i got to know something that made me annoyed. Still remember the b**** that gave me the show cause letter? Well, someone asked her why i abruptly left the company and her answer was 'she is slacking'. If i am slacking, then why my former supervisors told a broker that he lost a very good assistant to a competitor. Even the broker admitted that and told about it to somebody else. Damn you b****!!!

lazy me

it has been a while since i last updated this blog. what are my excuses? i don't have any good excuses but lots of lame ones. Perhaps these is one of those moments..i am not in the mood of updating, apart from the laziness to construct sentences. lots to tell actually. about my new job, new routines..new boyfriend..kidding!!. Perhaps this saturday or sunday i will write about what are happening lately.

Hot! Hot! Pants On Fire

As most of Malaysian, the poll outcome took us by surprise and i am quite content about it. I am neither a supporter nor am i an opposer it but as a the 'rakyat' of this country, i want to see whether the new political platform will bring about the changes the rakyat has been longed for. What are the future will be for Malaysia? We will see. For the first time, the Barisan won with a simple majority with 5 states are now under the opposion/coliation party. I never took interest in the poll results before but this time around i stayed until 6am. All of us took interest in the result especially after Nurul Izzah won at Lembah Pantai and saw many opposition candidates won their seats, not forgetting those who lost including Samy Vellu. This is a very painful lesson for the ruling party who are rather arrogant and complacent with their positions and never thought that the rakyat will actually go for the opposition. They underestimate the people power, failed to address the frustrations of the rakyat let alone tackling all issues in a more comprehensive manner . Voters are more mature now. They want their voice to be heard. The sunday's poll outcomes have surely said it all. For the opposition party this is the time for them to walk the talk. Like the others, i am looking forward to see whether the check and balance that being created by the people will be materialised. If before it was easy for the ruling to gain 2/3 majority in most decisions, now they have to put a hard fight with the opposition party. Those were being elected now better have a right formula to serve their community or will be facing the same fate in the next election. We want to be listen, we will be watching and appraise you in next 4 years.

If I Enjoy It..Yes

i need a lunch partner. I guess i will be eating alone until the new girl report for duty..i am in lun's shoes now. Apart form this, it has been a bliss.

I have to wake up much more earlier than before so that i will have the parking space at the lrt station and take train to work. As usual, the train is jammed pack with all the commuters with ur butt against others and can smell the smell especially after work..let's call it after work cologne. One which i don't understand why didn't they provided more coaches during peak hours to alleviate the overcrowding trains. And sometimes during your lucky day you can hear the train personnel say.."masuk dalam, masuk dalam". How can we go in when we can't even freaking move. sigh!!

And on the way to the office, passing by the KLCC park, watching people jog and looking at the scenery, the craziness in the train seems to fade away as i take a deep breath enjoying all of it. It's like i am living the moment.

First Day On Board of...

Today is my first day with the new company and i am writing this from the new laptop..it's too early to say. From what i have gathereed, they have been waiting for me to come as there are lots of things need to be done. So far it has been good. Went for an appointment with the client just now. Tomorrow there will be a lunch appointment with another client. I already have 41 emails in my inbox with the first one dated 13/12/07..while i was still with the previous company. Training for the client next week, a visit from a broker ( a familiar face).

Looking for a new beginning..

Sempurna...di matamu

It's good to be back. I will tell about the trip in the next entry.

Andra & The Backbone - Sempurna

kau begitu sempurna
di mataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku
akan selalu memujamu

di setiap langkahku
ku kan selalu memikirkan dirimu
tak bisa ku bayangkan
hidupku tanpa cintamu

* janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
takkan mampu menghadapi semua
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

reff:
kau adalah darahku
kau adalah jantungku
kau adalah hidupku
lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu
sempurna, sempurna

kau genggam tanganku
saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
kau bisikkan kata
dan hapus semua sesalku

**thanks for the song, love it**

Happy Birthday Awan Putih

For a good friend and such a sweet person..

On Your Birthday
by: Unknown

May your spirit keep the freedom
of a butterfly in spring
and your heart be filled always
with the joys of simple things.
May your essence claim the freshness
of the new laid morning dew.
All of this...and more...
is my Birthday wish for you.

I Bid Farewell..

Salam and Hello everyone,

It's always hard to say goodbye. I shan’t say goodbye but I’ll say see you around instead.

Sadly, after over 6 glorious years in this company, today's my last day at LR. It is with mixed emotions that I send this email. As some of you know, I have accepted a position at another company. It was not an easy decision to make because I truly enjoy working with all of you here at LR. There are so many people to name, I just don't know where to start. Thanks so much to everyone who made it worthwhile: the time we shared, for making work fun and the word, "family" a reality, for sharing the knowledge, for support, insights and help I gained over these 6 years, and most important the bond of friendship, making my stay such a wonderful journey.

To Fac Dept, keep up the good work. As to II and MZ, you guys are the best and doubt will ever find bosses as great as both of you anywhere. Thanks for everything.

Please do keep in touch, I can be reached at my personal email address or mobile,

Thanks again for everything. I wish you plenty of smiles, blue skies and fluffy white clouds-now and always.

It's hard to believe it's time to go
Leave this way of life, spread our wings and grow
Say goodbye to those friends that we hold dear to our hearts
Shedding tears for we'll be so far apart
Remembering all the good times and even the bad
Including the fights we sometimes had
Through the tears and the pain
Friendship was our gain
We stuck together through sunshine and rain, laughs and shouts
We found out what true friends were all about
So as our senior year comes to an end
We'll carry in our hearts our special friends
And take with us all the memories that were made

**going to office still tomorrow**

Ramblings

Been busy with work. I plan to get the Fac Database be ready before i leave. i have done necessary and now waiting for my colleague in Bahrain to do add in what is required of the database to meet our requirement. I am hoping him to revert by Monday in order for me to brief all the other staff and kick it off. Now i am not sure if i can get it done before or on my last day of work. People says work will be less once you have tendered your resignation especially the last few weeks. I beg to differ...i am still doing the officework. My boss have even told me to check the bordereaux prepared by colleague this monday. With the database thingy on my mind i feel my work are unsettle. Going to have a divisional lunch tomorrow..basically a farewell lunch for me.

Emotionally, it sucks . Just i am feeling sad and had to confess i was feeling kind of lonely. You never hear me saying it before and it's the truth. Now..now i sound so pathetic. Had a good chat with my sis on the way back to Malacca. We never been close, let alone to share our stories. That night we shared our little stories. I am glad that she can think wisely now, mature and have all her senses. She said few things that made me wondered about something...sigh!!

Whatever it is..i am off to Bandung and Jakarta this Thursday.

Chequer'd with woven shadows as I lay

Another 15 days and i will saying adieus, ta-ta, bye to my friends and the office. There is nothing much to be done in the office. I have handed over my portfolio of to Mekna effective 1st Jan. and transfered some of the knowledge to her...what she needs to know and what needs to be done. It is impossible to learn what i have known for the past 3/4 years in a month. I guess she will learn more and grab the knowledge along the way like i did. I will be guiding her while i am here, no doubt about it. Still got work to do, a little bit here and there... kind of lazy and only see to it when i feel in the mood to do so..how bad of me. And knowing the fact i will be surfing the net most of the time whilst the other are occupied, make me feel quite guilty... It also instill laziness in me of going to work every morning. Some say that i shouldn't bother doing the works and enjoy the moments.

Last week my boss asked if i have packed my things. Told him that i have not..well, the matter of fact i did empty my workplace drawers. Lots of junk papers..what do you expect after more than 6 years been here, seating at the same workplace. I have packed my things in two A4 boxes and are still here. I need empty this workstation by next week. Bringing back all the books and notes. A few more boxes, desktops i bought form the office. This means more stuff in the storeroom (like i have one). I have also notified all the clients, local and overseas that i will be leaving the company. I thought of doing it 3 or 2 days before i leave but my dearest boss asked me to inform them last week. Can't help it but to think "boss aku ni tak sabar ke nak aku blah..hari tu tanya if dah pack my things and now suruh inform all the client". I guess i have to think that he is doing it in a good faith.

Cekya and me met up with Rudy (Kurekuresakti) and Zuril (Langit Malam). Though Rudy and i have been ym'ing each other occasionally since he was in Japan, we never actually meet up with each other until last Friday. Met him at Starbucks KL Sentral, had a chit chat and he need to go off early as he had another appointment in Shah Alam. Such an ambitious guy and i wish him all the best in his business.

At last i met the person behind Langit Malam, a sweet shy lady she is. Had our lunch at Pizza Hut. Sorry dear, we didn't know that you don't eat pizza, should have told us earlier. We will remember it the next time around. Catched "Tatkala Bulan Mengambang", a black and white movie..not to bad. Headed home after that...not quite yet. Feeling like having something soupy and hot, hoping that it will help to resolve my uncomfortable stomach due to late breakfast and lunch the day before as i was really hooked up with trimming the small lawn in front of my house. Cekya suggested Uncle's Lim Chicken Porridge with Soya Cincau. As a porridge lover, it sounded so nice. Even more tempting when she said the egg inside the porridge need to be stirred whilst the porridge is still hot. Ohh...this is so mouthwatering. That was what i had...plus with soy sauce and pepper. Soya cincau too!!

Alhamdulillah, Lin is safely back from performing hajj. Good to see her. Yes, without a doubt, i do miss her. She has been my good friend since for past 2 years. Got to know her the day i went for the MBA admission interview and later got to know that our office is only a few blocks away. Even more so now that our house is only 5 minutes from each other. I pray that she will also will succeed in finding herself a new job..in KLCC area i hope.

Got an appointment with the neurologist consultant at DSH tomorrow.

Glass Rainbow

Come over to my house to play
When the birds won't sing and the skies are gray
Give me your hands and lend me your soul
Then bead me a string of glass rainbows

How pretty are the little lights
Shining through the glass stained bright,

Like so many butterflies
Dashing, flashing through the sky

Lisa G. Leming

P.S. I Love You.

Just finished reading the book. It really made me cry..from the first few pages up until the end. Am i overly sensitive? The movie has been released in December 2007 but yet to be here. Waiting eagerly.

One of my many fav excerpt of the book...

"Holly sighed. 'Every time someone asked me that question, Sharon, I say, 'I am fine, thank you,' but to be honest i am not. Do people really want to know how you feel when they ask, How are you?'? Or are they just trying to be polite? Holly smiled. The next time the woman across my house says to me, 'How are you?" I'm going to say to her; well, actually i'm not very well at all, thank you. I'm feeling a bit depressed and lonely. Pissed off at the world. Envious of you and at your little perfect family but not particularly envious of your husband at having to live with you. And then, i'll tell her about how i started a new job and met lots of new people and how i am trying hard to pick myself up but i'm now at a loss about what else to do. Then i'll tell her how it pisses me off when everyone says that time is a healer when at the same time they also say that absence makes the heart grow fonder, which really confuses me, because that means the longer he is gone the more i want him. I'll tell her that nothing is healing at all and that every morning i wake up in my empty bed it feels like salt is being rubbed into those unhealing wounds.' Holly took a deep breath. "And then i'll tell her about how much i missed my husband and about how worthless my life seems without him. How uninterested i am getting in getting on with things without him and i'll explain that how i feel like i am just waiting for my world to end so that i can join him. She'll probably say, "Oh that's good, like she always does, kiss her husband goodbye, hop into her car and drop her kids to school, go to work, make the dinner and got to bed with her husband and she will done it all while I'm still trying to decide what colour shirt to wear to work. What do you think?' Holly finally finished and turned to Sharon.'

Cecelia Ahern


People can be very fake sometimes, just a matter of asking and answering while some other just don't really understand or not trying to understand. What do you think?

Life is a walk across a field

It is only few hours before the clock strikes 12am, marking a new year. A new beginning for some people. What has 2007 brought you? For me 2007 has surely spices up my life in so many ways.

I tendered my resignation letter in November..one thing i thought i never do even in my 6 years of working with the company. I know i had future with the company but i guess it is a decision i had to make for a better career advancement. I have grudges..but i guess most of you know about it. Someone said don't burn your bridges...intend not to do so, with some people that is.
I completed my MBA this year..it's my personal achievement. Something that i am proud of. Eventhough my earlier target was to do it after 3 year of working..but it's better late than never. Relationship..ermm, i am still single. Yes..i do hope that i will end my single life in 2007 but i guess one can only dream..i got few more hours to dream.
I make lots of new friends this year..friends of friends. And i still think that i need a new circle of friends without neglecting the existing friends.
Exquis Images...exquisite images. Yes, that is the name that we agreed to be in our name cards. We have been quite busy lately with photoshots and Cekya have put in trust for me to handle all the admin tasks..hope that i won't let her down.

2007 has been a great journey...a walk through life that will turn into memorable moments.

What are my hopes and resolution for 2008? I will tell you later in my next entry. Till then..

Goodbye 2007 and Welcome 2008. Happy New Year To All.

Bookmark
by Dave Kartzman
Let me be a bookmark in your life;
Crafted with our love
And the coloured inks
of our words;
A weathered parchment
of my soul
Upon your memory.

As you walk through life,
Other chapters will be scripted.
Someday,
you will reflect,
Tabbing back to the bookmark we built,
Remembering . . .

So your baby is here! What joy and what pleasure!

As promised, this my niece..little Ivana Marcella. New addition to the clan. Such a sweetie pie. To Yan and Aezril...

A Baby Changes Things

A baby changes things;
They’ll never be the same;
Your life is filled with wonder,
Since your little miracle came.

There’s lots of things to do now,
But with the new tasks you face,
Your family gains more love,
And bonds time will never erase.

Congratulations on your new addition!

By Karl and Joanna Fuchs

'Tis So Much Joy! 'Tis So Much Joy!

2008 resolutions? I think i need to have that. Few weeks back i found one of my notebook. I was flipping through pages and a page caught the attention of my eyes. Can't help but to smile. Somewhere in 2002, I put down a few things i want to achieve and totally forget all about it. These were the targets :-
a. Complete my ACII
b. Pursue MBA
c. Become an Assistant Manager
d. Have underwriting knowlegde
e. Leadership skills
g. Get married

Yes!! I have achieved most of what being listed down except for the last. It feels so nice, so content. A triumph. A good deed to myself. Perhaps this year i should map out what are my future targets...the last one without exception. winks. winks

How about you guys? Anything in mind?

Climb Till Your Dream Comes True - Helen Steiner Rice,

often your task will be many,
and more than you think you can do..
often the hills insurmountable, too..
but always remember..
the hills ahead are never as steep as they seem,
and with faith in your heart, start upward
and climb 'til you reach your dream.
for nothing in life that is worthy
is ever too hard to achieve
if you have the faith to believe..
for faith is a force that is greater
than knowledge or power or skill
and many defeats turn to triumph
if you trust in god's wisdom and will..
there is nothing that god cannot do,
so start out today with faith in your heart
and climb 'til your dream comes true.

If there were dreams to sell, What would you buy?

Of late life been pretty busy...keep me occupied. I like being around with people i love..sharing witty stories that tickle your heart and made you burst with laughters. Because once at home by myself, the loneliness haunts and mind boggling questions will definitely come across my mind. What will become of me? What future will brings me? Yeah..yeah i know. I am the one who are going to set the course to where is it going and how. The thing is, i am still in quest of what i really want...but i can't be twiddling my thumbs forever, can i?.

One for sure, i don't want to stay single all my life. Then again, i don't want the degree of freedom i enjoy now is being ripped off me. I want everything. I am selfish.

My thoughts soar not as they ought to soar,
Higher and higher on soul-lent wings;
But ever and often and more and more
They are dragged down earthward by little things,
By little troubles and little needs,
As a lark might be tangled among the weeds.

My purpose is not what it ought to be,
Steady and fixed, like a star on high,
But more like a fisherman's light at sea;
Hither and thither it seems to fly--
Sometimes feeble, and sometimes bright,
Then suddenly lost in the gloom of night.

My life is far from my dream of life--
Calmly contented, serenely glad;
But, vexed and worried by daily strife,
It is always troubled and ofttimes sad--
And the heights I had thought I should reach one day
Grow dimmer and dimmer, and farther away.

My heart never finds the longed-for rest;
Its worldly striving, its greed for gold,
Chilled and frightened the calm-eyed guest
Who sometimes sought me in days of old;
And ever fleeing away from me
Is the higher self that I long to be.

Ella Wheeler Wilcox

what are the blessings of the sight

I would be lying if i say i did not put any hope or even daydreamed it might have work out well. Almost like a fairytale and too good to be true. At the end of the day, I believe Allah knows what is the best for me. I have not regrets but thankful indeed. Alhamdulillah, the act to entice me with all the lovey dovey thingy did not blind my judgment and be firm of what or how i want it to be. Juicy stories can be fabricated..just don't discount that.

But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do--
determined to save
the only life you could save.

Mary Oliver

Cekya-thanks a zillion..for all the insights
Awan-off course, i won't forget you.

Once the package of friendship has been opened..

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand,
nor the kindly smile,
nor the joy of companionship;
it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one
when you discover that someone else believes in you
and is willing to trust you with a friendship.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

and why bother the rest?

what life has thrown me I have caught..

i have learned that
your life can change
in a matter of minutes
by people who don't even know you

I should not dare to leave my friend..

I am changing my blog layout since the previous layout went haywire..kinda lazy to really dig which part of the script that are missing. I shall miss the red apples. I am liking this new look..kinda clean. Ramai yg being away from blogging arena kecuali Lun and Jimi yang sentiasa ada updates. Thot of blogging about it tapi Lun dah blog dulu..hehehe

Lot of things had happened. I got a new niece..Yan's daughter. Ivana Marcella..that is her name. We called her Marcella. Later i'll post her picture..kena minta from Cekya. Talking about Cekya, lately, both of us memang banyak spent time together..mostly related to Exquis Images. Tapi bila dah jumpa tu biasalah..gossip, gossip and gossip.

Last week Aan's mom was admitted in the ICU due to a burst blood vein and had to undergo an operation. Alhamdulillah, the operation went smoothly. Please pray for her speedy recovery. To Aan, semoga tabah menghadapi dugaan Allah.

Workwise. Counting the days to february 2nd. My last day with the company. Kerja pun dah tak banyak..bosanlah juga. Now clearing up apa-apa yang patut. Masih lagi not sure as who will be taking over my portfolio..still looking for the right candidate. Better find soon as i need to do handover thingy before i leave.

Thanks Ligo for the lovely ring and to Jimi for the cd.

A Special Wish

Thoughts Of Love On Your Birthday

Birthdays are occasion
for compliments and praise
And saying many of the things
we don't say other days -
For thoughts of love and gratitude
are fragile, cherished things,
As gossamer as fleecy clouds
or hummingbirds' small wings,
And often through the passing days
we feel deep down inside
Unspoken thoughts of thankfulness
and fond, admiring pride -
But words can say so little
when the heart is overflowing
And often those we love the most
must have no way of knowing
the many things the heart conceals
and never can impart,
For words seem so inadequate
to express what's in the heart -
But since it is your birthday
I thought it would be nice
If I let this first edition verse
by Helen Steiner Rice
In some small way express the things
that I would like to say
Not only on your birthday
but on every other day.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY CEKYA....

Hugs & kisses
::wtl::

New Direction

there are so much to tell but i am somewhat lazy these days to blog about it. been a lazy bum i just posted song lyrics in my past 2 entries.

My brother, Anuar got engaged on 3rd raya. I got to know about it when on last day of Ramadhan. It was a very simple engagement ceremony since his fiancee's dad just past away 2nd week of Ramadhan in his sleep. Alfatihah.

Remember the SCL thingy..i submitted the letter on Thursdays, first week after raya. The day before i got a call from someone asking me if am i still interested to join them but for a lower post. Was quite surprised because earlier she said there will an opening only in January. I guess this is my rezeki. Without hesitation i said yes. Went for the interview on the arranged date and the next day she called me up and said i got the job. Alhamdulillah. I was so happy and smiling the whole day through. One morning my immediate superior called and asked me if i heard of anyone leaving the company. OMG..did she actually know? I mentioned one of my colleague's name and avoiding to let her know as i have not get my letter of offer. She later called Maddy seeking for confirmation. Only our bosses did not know that i was leaving but he did smsed from Bali wanting to know who else will be leaving and they did not tell him. Surprise..surprise.

The D-day finally arrived. the convocation went well. with smiles all over our faces. we didn't thought that we made it. many of us planned to quit, myself without exclusion. to my surprise one even went to the office to sent the form with the intention to quit but unfortunately the office was closed. he have no other choice but to continue with the second semester. had he managed to sent the form, we wouldn't see having a big smile on the convocation day. When we first started there we about 37 of us in the class but only 14 managed to complete on time and graduated. To all my beloved classmates..WE MADE IT THROUGH GUYS. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

I tendered a 3 months notice of resignation effective today after signing the offer letter yesterday. Am i happy? I definitely am but at the same time feeling kind of sad knowing that i will be leaving friends that i have known for the past 7 years..friends that i become close with. i shall miss them but i guess i need to think of my future nevertheless.

untuk dia

untuk si dia yang aku kenal
cinta dan sayang aku padanya tidak akan
pernah padam...buatlah aku tersenyum
dengan bahagiakan dirimu
pejamkan mata aku pasti di sisi

kogi - 9 september

kerana dia bukan kamu

Pejamkan Matamu - OST 9 September

kupejamkan mata
kau hadir di sisi
ku hulurkan tangan kau sambut dengan kasih
tenangkanlah hatimu
agar bisaku senyum

Pejamkanlah matamu jika rindukan wajahku
ku pejamkan mata..kau hadir disisi
bisik mesra darimu menyemai kasihku..
bahagiakan dirimu..agar bisaku senyum...

pejamkanlah matamu
kupasti di sisi
untuk dikau kasih ku curahkan cinta suci
yang tak mungkin terpadam
akan terus membara

bahagiakan dirimu
agar bisaku tersenyum
pejamkanlah matamu
jika rindukan wajahku
janji ku kepadamu aku pasti di sisi

**
Sukar utk digambarkan perasaan aku di penghujung filem 9 September..mungkin tidak menjangka sebegitu 'ending'nya. Yang pasti ia mengundang rasa sebak yang teramat sangat dan wtl tidak mampu langsung menahan airmata menderu jatuh. Until i had to calm myself down. Pasti orang yg melepasi kami perasan mata and hidung wtl yang merah kerana menangis. Tiada lagi rasa malu..aku berhak atas apa yang aku rasa. Thanks Cekya for the understanding. terlalu sukar menafikan apa yang wtl rasa..terlalu sukar

"because he is not you"

aku mau

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi

Kujanjikan aku ada

Wish For A Rainbow

For all the bad things that had happened, good things will come my way...that is for sure. Positive mind.

Doakan wtl...

Langit dan Awan

Dari kecil aku suka melihat langit. Melihat kepulan awan yang pelbagai bentuk dan rupa. Putih , bersih..mengingatkan aku pada 'cotton candy' setiap kali. Seolah ada satu lagi dunia/negara di situ. Setiap satu seolah ada kisah yang hendak disampaikan. Ia memberikan aku satu rasa yang sukar diungkap, satu ketenangan. Sudah agak lama aku tidak berbuat demikian. Mungkin kerana perhatianku kini lebih tertumpu di jalan raya daripada menikmati keindahan langit dan awan. Apatah lagi aku acapkali pulang ke rumah bila matahari sudahpun terbenam. Mungkin juga sejenak aku terlupa dengan keindahannya. Karambunai..itulah paling akhir aku memandang langit dan awan dengan begitu asyik. Luas terbentang. Captivating.

Petang tadi aku dalam perjalanan pulang, aku berkesempatan menikmati keindahan langit dan awan walau seketika cuma. Ditambah pula dengan pelangi petang . Aku rindu. Rindu melihat langit dan awan.

Aku hanya ingin duduk memandang.

Show cause letter

Pagi2 tadi ada satu email yang really pissed me off. Kurang pahala puasa ku hari ini...pagi-pagi dah curse berbakul-bakul. Yang wtl tak paham orang lain pun ambil EL by informing their peers and subordinates tapi they pick on me. If nak imposed the rules, impose lah kat semua orang..not only towards certain person. Memang cel*** punya perempuan

I think what happened to me is more to a personal attack because i replied to her email and one quite harsh email that was accidently sent to her. Before i went out of the office, she called me and handed a letter. I was required to write a show caused letter stating the reasons for my two earlier EL applications within 7 days from the issuance of the letter which is today. It was signed by my CEO. Failing to do so, a disciplinary action will be taken against me. What the fucking shit is going on here? As far as i am concern, my boss don't have any problem with me taking the EL...why are they making so much fuss out of it. Orang lain pun ambil EL..tak kena pun tulis show cause letter. This is shitty shit.

If memang betul tujuan dia untuk to get back on me..I won't forgive her, never, never in my life.She tarnished my employment record. If i got a better offer elsewhere, i will sure that it will be made known to her of it. Biar it lingers at the back of her mind.

Saat ini i really wish that i got a better offer elsewhere...

It pissed me off..really pissed me of. Damn it!!!!

doakan

Doakan wtl moga berjaya to secure an interview with them and eventually the job.

Happy Birthday, Azell and Wati

Celebrate The Miracle

Of all that makes you YOU.
Count a blessing for each candle
Have your cake and eat it too!

Unwrap this day and savor it
And all the love that's there
Send a dream-wish straight to
Heaven on the wings of prayer

Remember what a blessing you are
Even after this day is gone.
You're a gem, a priceless treasure
Let yourself shine on!

Taken from :
Absolutely Poetry

Azell : Hope you have a great celebration...age is merely numbers.
Wati : Age is merely numbers...have fun. Thanks for being a great cousin. See you at kampung this raya.

Want A Ride..

Stumbled into this cute hello kitty car masa nak beli kuih for berbuka kat Pantai Kundur few weeks back. Teringat cekya...because of the pink colour. Would you go this far?

Sekadar Perlu

terlalu banyak yang ingin diperkatakan, juga rasa yang ingin diluah. tapi aku fikir tak perlu diceritakan segalanya, ianya tak akan pernah habis seperti kisah sang penglipur lara yang tiada penghujungnya. cukup sekadar yang perlu-perlu sahaja. sukar mencari prasa untuk menguraikan rasa ini. sebaik sahaja ku biarkan ia tersimpan. aku juga tidak mahu walau sekelumit rasa bosan di kalangan kalian yang membaca.."the same old things over and over again".

jangan kalian salah sangka, aku bukan membuat pertuduhan. kalian terlalu baik. cuma aku tidak mahu terjadi sebegitu, bila tiba rasa bosan itu wujud. aku tahu perasaannya bila mendengar ujaran yang hanya sekadar berbahasa. hilang sudah keikhlasannya.

so, sekadar yang perlu-perlu sahaja.

In the list

of recipient...alhamdulillah.




14th Nov 2007...

morning stanza

2.30am and eyes open wide.
wide awake and so alone.
alone creates loneliness.
loneliness of the heart.
heart in despair.
despair of love.
love hurts.
hurts me.

wtl
2.30am, sg buloh

**saying goodbye to Kota Singa each time were not easy. there were the certain kinds of feelings. Felt like i left behing few pieces of my life puzzle.**

Diam

Berada dalam keadaan diam itu kadangkala begitu meresahkan jiwa. Hati berkata dan tertanya.

From His Album..

Lagu ini memberi sedikit sebanyak memberi kesan..i personally think this is his best album so far. Worth the wait.


Tak Lelah - Anuar Zain
Composer/Lyricist : Numata

Tak lelah
Kau beri sgalanya
'Tuk yakinkan ku
Kau sayang padaku
Hingga kau
Taklukkan diriku
Membuat ku tersedar
Ku t'lah merasakan sesuatu

Di saat ku mulai sayang
Di saat ku mulai cinta
Kau yang hilangkan rasa untukku

Chorus
Sedih yang mesti ku pendam
Rasa yang menjadi hampa
Ku jalani semua
Walau cinta kini tak berarah

Kau pergi tak beralasan
Tak seperti yang ku pinta
Ku menunggu tiba waktu kau ucapkan
Kau sayang pada ku

Tiada jodoh

Mungkin benar kata mereka berdua aku tiada jodoh dengannya. Buat kali kedua, ia terjadi lagi dan kali ini aku benar-benar kehilangannya. Apa yang hendak kukatakan lagi..aku perlu bersetuju dengan mereka. Handphone hilang. Called my number tapi tak dpt dihubungi. Baru sahaja beli 1G memory card rm60 tadi. Aduss..memang org tu dah ambil. I am hoping bulan puasa ni terbuka hati orang tu memulangkan handphoneku. Doakan sama ya.

Let it be...

Biarpun apa kata mereka.

Biarpun sakit telinga mendengar.

Biarpun pedih hati menerima.

Biarpun terkadang sukar untuk kutelan.

Biarpun mereka masih melihat luaran.

Aku masih bersyukur dengan kurniaanNya.

Syukur dengan kekurangan diri

Itulah menjadi tonggak kekuatanku sedari dulu.

Syukur. Syukur. Syukur. Alhamdulillah.

the thoughts that count

monolog..

"bebaskan aku

dari keadaan ini

sempurnakan hidupku

dari rapuhnya jiwaku

adakah seseorang

yang melepaskanku

dari kesepian ini"

8 Random Facts

I have been tagged by Blalang. Ingatkan adegan tagged meng'tagged' dah tak ada lagi. Here goes..first kena post the rules..

THE RULES:
1. Each blogger must post these rules first.
2. Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they've tagged, and to read ur blog.

Random fact no. 1



Green tea. I like green tea..suka banget. Tak tahu kenapa begitu suka dengan green tea. I am liking it a lot. Anything with associated dgn green tea definitely akan dapat my attention. Antara things yang pernah i have or once have or even tried are ice-cream, ice-blended, body lotion, body soap, canned or bottled drinks, boh ice green tea, toothpaste, perfume and off course the tea itself. Am i crazy or what!! Talking about ice-cream, hari tu ternampak green tea ice-cream kat Giant. Akan beli for sure.

Random fact no. 2


Books...bila ditanya apa my favourite pastime, i akan jawab reading. Some were smart enough to make a remark "you are such a boring person." How boring can it be...books bring you the a journey yang berbeza. Each book have a story to tell..samada menarik atau tidak. That's explain why the survey kata malaysian read less than 5 books a year. how sad. I love reading since i was small...still loving it. I still have the first book i bought and now with my 9 years old nephew. Ingat i baca buku tu kat my late grandma's house. I will to buy at least 2 books a month..tu yang rak buku dah melimpah ruah and i am one of the Malaysian Bookcrosser...

Random fact no. 3


Talkative. I like to think i am that kind of person...in a good way (hopefully others pun fikir macam tu). Nak kata terover peramah tu taklah kot but i rasa i have no problem bercakap dengan orang i baru kenal. Lebih-lebih lagi if orang tu pun sama talkative.


Random fact no. 4



Music. Suka dengar lagu..sekarang ni mostly lagu indonesia. Malaysian artist boleh dikira dgn jarilah kot yg i suka. It's not that they are not good but indonesian are more better. hahahaha. I can listen to almost everything but taklah rap, heavy metal, remix and perhaps hiphop. Why..so not in the trend ke? Well setiap orang ada their own liking kan. Suka juga dengar Richard Clayderman..very calming and also not forgeting gamelan..suka,suka and suka (jgn tak caya, i ada cd gamelan). Talking about music..my fav. song of alltime is "More Than Words" by Extreme. Mungkin kerana the lyrics as well as the music...for me jika selalu mengungkap kata cinta akan membuatkan ia kurang bermakna if compared when it is said when you least expected it..shweet. Itu apa yg i rasa, org lain mungkin sebaliknya.

Random fact no. 5
Silence Treatment. I tak suka nak argue dengan orang...sebab i tak reti how to balas balik apa yang they said. Later baru kata to myself, i should said this or that. Most of the time i akan diam..especially bila i marah. Lagipun mungkin malas nak prolong all these buat sakit kepala aje. I think this make people take advantage of me sebab depa tu ingat i macam tak kisah dgn apa yg they buat or said. i will try to avoid any argument if possible but i can be very sarcastic at times..but very rare occasion. I was once a hot tempered person...believe me. Masa sekolah2 dulu..my friends will not talk to me if i marah. Nanti tak pasal-pasal, dia orang yang kena marah. That was then..now i am not that person..tend to take things much easy.

Random fact no. 6

Procrastinate. Very bad habit. I tend to do this sometimes. Quite often than not. Especially during study..somehow my brain ni if study awal-awal masuk tak masuk dalam otak apa yang dibaca. Bila last minute tu okay ajer penerimaan otak. Lepas tu mulalah regret..i can do even better if only i revise much earlier. Itu perkara biasalah kan.


Random fact no. 7

Poetry. One of the earliest poem yg ingat i belajar is "The Story of Augustus who not have any Soup". seingat i either masa std 5. Kena baca kat depan class.. "Augustus was a chubby lad; Fat ruddy cheeks Augustus had; bla bla bla.. "O take the nasty soup away! I won't have any soup to-day: I will not, will not eat my soup! I will not eat it, no!" dgn gaya-gaya sekali. Tersenyum sorang bila ingatkan. Then, years later Kak Sunida (wonder where is she at the moment..) wrote a poem in my book that i cherish until now. It somehow develop my love towards poetry once again. Suka poetry but tak pandai sangat nak tulis.. My fav. poetry.. 'IF' by Rudyard Kipling.

Random fact no. 8

Horror Movies. Tak suka tengok horror movie sebab it will haunt me for days. Also movies yang ada violences and suspence elements...boleh pecah dada. because of this, i always being teased by my cousins. Setiap kali i went to their place masa tu lah nak tengok horror movie. adusss. apa lagi sorok muka belakang bantal. I suka tengok investigation series macam CSI, Criminal Minds, Numb3rs, Bones etc etc.. Teringat pulak cerita TJ Hooker..masa tu gila tengok Adrian Zmed. Can still remember his name.

Ini sahaja yang dapat dicoretkan disini...now i have to list 8 names pulak. And the awards go to..

1. Cekya
2. Ligo
3. Lun
4. Awan
5. I_mshe
6. Azell
7. Cekmi
8. Jimi

Envy..

I am happy for them..i really am but i can stop myself from having the envy feeling. Think about myself and said "one day perhaps...one day perhaps." Period.

All the best

Good Luck Awan

Jungle Nite

First and foremost, Happy Birthday Cekmi. Do take care and have fun. Sms me when you are back.

Annual dinner was fun. We had it on the eve of National Day. Things were a bit chaotic in the beginning as the hotel was quite late in setting up the room. People were arriving and we still not ready. Our staffs had to lend them a hand with the set up. I was also quite disappointed because they cannot provide us with the flowers they had promised. They have lots function that day and the flowers were out of stock. Had to rush back to the hotel room to get ready or i'll be late. Despite the hiccups, the whole event was great. Lots of animals that nite and one cute pink rabbit. winks. winks.

I think everyone enjoyed themselves. I did. Even better with the presence of Cekya and Awan as our unofficial photographer. It was good to have them around. Life cannot be more better when you have your good friends to enjoy the joyful moments with you.

Thanks Awan and Cekya. Photos can be seen here.

saat itu

Merindu pada sebuah ceritera semalam yang seharusnya ditinggakan jauh. Sesekali kenangan itu menerjah dan tak mampu kutangkis. Sampai bilakah?

So so clumsy..

I am angry at myself. At my own clumsiness. I am disappointed with myself and for that i am speechless. May i will find my cellphone at the hotel or wherever it is. As well as the peace in my heart.

My Lil Angel

that's my lil angel, isya. she's a big girl now.
how i miss her..

She also likes pink. notice the pink dress and bangle..any similarities Cekya?

I Hid My Love

by : John Clare (1793 - 1864), Henry Gibson

I hid my love when young till I
Couldn't bear the buzzing of a fly,
I hid my love to my despite
Till i could not bear to look at the light:
I dare not gaze upon her face
But left her memory in each place;
Where'er I saw wild a flower lie
I kissed and bade my love good-bye.

I met her in the greenest dells,
Where dewdrops pearl the wood bluebells;
The lost breeze kissed her bright blue eye,
The bee kissed and went by,
A sunbeam found a passage there,
A gold chain round her neck so fair;
As secret as the wild bee's song
She lay there all the summer long.

I hid my love in field and town
till e'en the breeze would knocked me down;
the bees seemed singing the ballads o'er,
The fly's bass turned a lion's roar;
And even silence found a tongue,
To haunt me all the summer long;
The riddle nature could not prove
Was nothing else but secret love.

A year younger..

Happy Birthday Lun. Wish you all the happiness in the world.

I am in denial. Sigh!!

p/s :Happy Birthday MamaEmmy. Wish all dreams will come true.

W.O.W

A friend's words of wisdom :

"He will give what you want if you give Him what He wants"

So true..and yet sometimes we lose sight.


p/s : i like my new layout. Glad you guys like it too

The One With A New Layout

Had an enjoyable weekend with Awan and his friends..as well as Cekmi coincidently. A late nite treat at Restoran Jejantas with juicy stories..ermm. The next day we hit the road back to KL. Later that nite..at home, i feel all alone. Tak suka that feeling.

My blog has a new layout now..belum 100% siap. Very clean look.

Happy Hour

Life has been leisurely calm.. Not more classes to attend or trying to keep up with deadlines, and above all that, no more exams. So what did i do on saturdays and sundays? I did not do anything bizarre..sometimes just laze around and watched tellie till late time. Taking the time off even from blogging, though i have so much to tell. Such a wonderful life. I-A-M-L-O-V-I-N-G-I-T. But i am not very sure how long i can stay this way...not studying, i mean. Been doing that ever since i got my first degree. Few of my friends did ask if i have the intention to pursue. Yes, the intention to do Doctorate is there, just don't know when. At the moment, just let me feel the enjoyment of being free after the 2 years of hardwork.

Also, there are those who are not keen of the idea..wanting me to settle down. Not-that-easy. At my age, where can i find a good single guy nowadays..most of them are already taken, not ready for any commitment or career-oriented. What is left? The opportunist..lots of those these days. It scares me. Sometimes i feel that i in my comfort zone with being single. I have the freedom to do as i pleased, out with friends whenever i want. One the other hand, i want the companionship..if possible without having to sacrifice my freedom, perhaps not all but most of it. The only cloud in the horizon is the fail marriage or he turned out to be a complete stranger after saying the vows.

Transformers..robots in the sky ( An's version). Managed to see the movie after twice of unlucky circumstances. Some even said maybe 'i takde jodoh with transformers'. I am determined to see the movie..no matter what. You must be wondering what were the unlucky instances.

• My friend managed to get us the ticket for saturday show on wednesday. Woke up saturday morning with the eagerness to watch Transformers (been waiting since last year). Couldn't get my car to start..tried few times, still failed to get the engine running. It was 9.00pm and the workshops were yet to open. Luckily, they had their handwritten phone number at the banner. Quickly called the mechanic. After done some checking, he said the alternator need to be changed. Since he did not store any at the workshop, he need to get it elsewhere. Still early, i might be able to make it to KLCC at 11am. Waiting..waiting and felt like forever. My heart pounded fast when my watched showed 10.45pm. My hope crushes. Called my friend few times but can't get through. Apparently, she did not bring her cellphone. Told the mechanic i am going home (luckily it's only a 5 mins walk) and asked him to call me when it's ready. By the time the car is ready it has past 1pm. Sigh!!!
• On Monday, planned with my colleagues to watch the movie on Wednesday. The four of us..Redz, Jidi and Aja. Booked the ticket online and i got Redz to pick up the tickets. On that Wednesday, we rushed to Midvalley and got there on time. Went into the movie theatre and happily seated at our seats with the popcorns and all. Again, i waited. Popcorns almost finish...wondered why it took so long for the show to start. Suddenly we heard someone made an announcement that there was a technical problem and the movie cannot be shown. People started to make noises. i can understand why. To queue for the tickets is not something we want to do again. We have no other choice but to get our refund. Decided to watch the show on friday but we cannot do the booking since the monitor only showed up to Thursday showtimes. To cut it short, Friday and Saturday fully booked, we manage to catch Monday's show. At last, after such a long wait, i can proudly say that I HAVE WATCHED TRANSFORMERS. It was beyond words..superbly good. You know what i mean, right?

Masyi requested that i post pictures of the house i am staying currently. Will do that after i take a few snapshots. Not something fancy or extraordinary but i like it very much. Hoping that she will sell the house to me. Do pray for me..please.

I know i don't have the look but i don't need to be constantly reminded of that eventhough jokingly. I can accept it the first time but not that often. Thinking back, i feel that he are sometimes like my sister, like to say as they pleased without thinking that others might feel offended with their words. Lidah itu lebih tajam dari mata pedang. Whatever lah...the inner beauty is much more important that what lies in the outside. I am still grateful being the person i am..Alhamdulillah.

Later Alligator

Got lots to story tapi my internet is still not up and running sebab telephone line kat rumah ada problem. Hopefully it will be okay in this 2-3 weeks. am using my cuzzie pc to check few things.

take care guys

mana silapnya?

the other day i saw few people signed card and saw A**r pegang hadiah. asked him, he said hadiah org kahwin. i was a bit puzzled sebab in my knowledge tak ada news ada orang nak kahwin. today i saw hadiah tu at table my officemate yang last day. To kill my curiousity i asked someone card apa yang she signed the other day and she replied the card is for my officemate yang last day tu. A**n dah beli hadiah and she tanya siapa yang nak share. terasa kecil hati sungguh..the others but tak tanya i pun. bukan i kenal then setahun dua. I have know them for 11 years and they did this. dahlah lately ni rasa sangat terasing sangat with their attitude towards me. Am i that bad ke?

I think i need to do something positive to myself. Personal grooming and build up the confident level. Pedulikan mereka.

It Pay Off

Just dapat my result..ada 2A, 1A minus and 1B. tension betul dapat B for International Business. Walaupun bagaimanapun ku panjatkan teramat sangat syukur kepadaNya. I will be graduating this year will CGPA of 3.54. YEAY!!!! Nak grad. All the hardwork pay off. I am so HAPPY beyond words.

Remember tak, i selalu mention the top student in my class tu. He will be graduating with a CGPA of 3.97. Overall he got 3A plus, 9A and 1A minus. How to challenge that? One thing i can say he is gifted.


Thanks to all my classmate for your support and friendship. I LOVE YOU ALL and CONGRATS.

terasing

aku. dia. mereka. semakin jarak. terasa asing. aku dengan duniaku, dia dan mereka dengan dunianya. sesekala bermain di fikiran mungkin ada silapku hingga terjadinya ini. seharusnya aku tidak perlu peduli kerana dia sememangnya tidak. tapi aku tidak mampu kerana itu aku. syukur aku ada kamu yang berikan pelangi.

where the h*** are you?

my brother is nowhere in sight. geramlah ni. Since yesterday i have been packing all the stuff. Lupa nak mention..i am moving to a new place esok. things ada lagi yg tak pack. My room ada stuffs yang belum pack. tadi kemas kitchen and the third room yang full of stuff. Tak tahu cukup tak the boxes..now pun dah more than 15 boxes, big and small. By 9 tomorrow lorry nak datang and only the three of us yang akan angkat all the stuffs.. me, brother and the lorry driver. Am hoping that my brother akan tolong me kemas. dah sms, sampai sekarang tak nampak batabg hidung. penat ni. the boxes tak susun lagi, sampah belum masuk dalam plastic hitam and buang. Sabar jelah.

Ni tengah rehat kejap.

Lupa nak mention..we had a good time kat swensens today. Topic of the day "wtl and stolen car tyres". Awan and Cekmi brought their friends, Khairil and Azrai.
Lun - i have bagi your gift tu pada everybody except MamaEmmy cannot make it as she is in Kuantan.

way back home

i am the Changi Airport, on my way back home. Met Ligo and Masyi...sadly i did not meet Lun. Last minute change of plan..

will tell you all about it. My foot is killing me..